Dear PD...

[Ben Shapiro]

Woke up today slightly sore. Haven't been on much at all for the last week or so. I've been fighting of some sort of fucking mid life twenty crisis, and depression. Watching Ironman 3 helped me get out of brooding. I cried a few times when Tony Stark went into a crazy panic attack. I feel the same way when I can't do something except I hide it well by laughing, or tuning out of reality. I'm also not as angry anymore, or full of god damn rage. This is critical point in my character for this is the fuel that keeps me burning through. Unlike Utopians,hippies, and Houston Free Thinkers™. Who think I should ONE LOVE™ rapists,child molesters,people who bitch about science but won't stop using it when they need it, people who fucking use money but won't shut up about how evil money is ,and Nazis.

Renee Michael Belman has been the most amazing wife trying to piece back Bear back to his former smelly self. Even the meows from the Jewcat can't snap me back to reality. I feel naked , and worthless without my god damn rage.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

All this reminds me, must to go back to school.

I went insane in 2009, and I think dropping out at that point was a good choice.
But I'm functional again.
...I have half a social science undergrad.
I need more school to be a therapist.

May I suggest that, whatever you do, do not go back to school until the tape in your head is not "must go back to school", but "FUCKING WANT to go back to school"?

There is absolutely no way that I could be doing this right now if I didn't want it more than anything.

And don't let me get you down. I'm bitching because I bit off too big a chunk this term and fucked myself over, not because I don't love it.

AND ON THAT NOTE

I have been procrastinating the last 4 stats homework problems, each of which requires a short epistle, and class begins in 70 minutes. See you spags LATER.

[Left]

All this reminds me, must to go back to school.

I went insane in 2009, and I think dropping out at that point was a good choice.
But I'm functional again.
...I have half a social science undergrad.
I need more school to be a therapist.

May I suggest that, whatever you do, do not go back to school until the tape in your head is not "must go back to school", but "FUCKING WANT to go back to school"?

There is absolutely no way that I could be doing this right now if I didn't want it more than anything.

And don't let me get you down. I'm bitching because I bit off too big a chunk this term and fucked myself over, not because I don't love it.

AND ON THAT NOTE

I have been procrastinating the last 4 stats homework problems, each of which requires a short epistle, and class begins in 70 minutes. See you spags LATER.

At some point I will have to deal with the algebra and the stats.
...I want to therapize people.
But after having easily spent 14-15 hours a week studying "intermediate algebra" only to fail the first exam with a 53...this does not fill me with confidence.
Everything else will be easy in relation, I was reading at a college level in junior high.
U of Houston has a great MCSW program, I just have to get there.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

All this reminds me, must to go back to school.

I went insane in 2009, and I think dropping out at that point was a good choice.
But I'm functional again.
...I have half a social science undergrad.
I need more school to be a therapist.

May I suggest that, whatever you do, do not go back to school until the tape in your head is not "must go back to school", but "FUCKING WANT to go back to school"?

There is absolutely no way that I could be doing this right now if I didn't want it more than anything.

And don't let me get you down. I'm bitching because I bit off too big a chunk this term and fucked myself over, not because I don't love it.

AND ON THAT NOTE

I have been procrastinating the last 4 stats homework problems, each of which requires a short epistle, and class begins in 70 minutes. See you spags LATER.

At some point I will have to deal with the algebra and the stats.
...I want to therapize people.
But after having easily spent 14-15 hours a week studying "intermediate algebra" only to fail the first exam with a 53...this does not fill me with confidence.
Everything else will be easy in relation, I was reading at a college level in junior high.
U of Houston has a great MCSW program, I just have to get there.

How have you been studying, and what level of algebra did you master before starting intermediate algebra? I found the tutor center very helpful, and also if you talk to the right people you can usually make arrangements to take your tests outside of class, in the math admin office or something, so you can take all the time you need.

The intermediate algebra class was the hardest class I've taken, by far, to the extent that I switched from a letter grade to pass/fail because I didn't think I was going to pull a B, let alone an A.

It might be helpful for you to go back to beginning algebra, complete that, and then retake intermediate algebra with a pass/fail. After struggling like hell with intermediate algebra I have gotten straight A's ever since.

Also, avoid taking any intensive math class over the summer, it's just too short a term. Not that you necessarily would but I made that mistake and it really sucked.

[EK WAFFLR]

Not quite sure what's going on ITT, but, PD, I LOVE YOU

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I have completely lost the plot of this thread.

The inside of my head is basically just white noise right now.

I think I am going to go work on my bicycle for a little while, then do some chemistry, then watch a video and write a paper about it, and then I think I'll dye my hair auburn, just for shits and giggles.