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The Good Reverend Roger

October 02, 2013, 08:18:48 PM
So, yeah.  Lost weight big time, switched from smokes to an e-cig, I haven't had a drop to drink in 11 months, and I feel pretty damn good.  Physically.  Now that I don't have half the anxiety and discomfort caused by being a fat boozer with his lungs full of asphalt, I feel something is missing, like something happened and now my life is FLAT and SHRINK-WRAPPED.  I have an urge to do something grotesque before I die. 

But what?  Most of the funny old schticks, like hassling the concierge ("SEND UP TWO MIDGETS AND A THROW PILLOW!") have been done, and doing them again would be kinda stale and pathetic.  Same goes for hipster photo safaris, joining the teabaggers to death, etc. 

In short, I need something NEW.  Something that isn't just a replay of past glories, or a thinly-veiled repeat of the same.  I need to monster people, but I don't have any idea what the hell to do.  For once, I am out of ideas.  It's all gone stale, which is probably why we now have the user base of, say, Myspace holdouts.

So, while I figure out what I WILL do, I am also going to decide what I am NOT going to do anymore.  I'm not going to spend hours per day here as I have for the last decade.  Not because I'm butthurt or anything, but because spewing a rant that gets maybe 1-2 responses - at best - for the last 6 months has more or less taken the wind out of my sails.  And without any interaction, I've...Well, I've run out of things to say.  Note that this doesn't apply to LDW.  That continues.

I'm not going to do any more whiskey-fueled rampages.  I find that I enjoy sobriety far more than drunkeness.  Same thing goes for cactus, with the other added benefit of, you know, not eating lizards in the back yard.

Lastly, I'm not going to do much more in the way of Facebook.  The "suggested post" ad feature drives me fucking buggy.

I DO plan to do a letter-writing binge starting in the next couple of weeks.  I'll post a sign up roster later on.

I DON'T plan on playing CIV5 ever again.  Fucking thing ate my life.

I am also trying to find a decent writer's board that I can access from work.  I want to do more serious writing, and I'm the kind of guy that needs feedback...Which I do not get at the local IRL writer's group (I am not writing SRS LITCHACHAW, and when that fuckbat in the bow tie sneered at me for not trying to be the next F Scott Fitzgerald...Well, let's just say that I'm not welcome there anymore) or anywhere else that I know of at the moment, including here.

Now, I'm not hating on anyone.  I'm just telling it like it is.  This place has become anemic.  It's been 3 years since we DID anything, and 6 months since there was a monster-ass thread that wasn't about drugs, etc.  So while I'm not flouncing (I'll be around, I just won't be attempting any more CPR), I am reassigning priorities IRL and on the interbutts, and this is one of them.

Lastly, I will not be allowing myself to get upset about this job anymore.  Life's too fucking short. 

Or Kill Me.


" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

LMNO

#1
October 02, 2013, 08:26:54 PM
I feel you.  I've been kind of embarassed that my total posts of content in the past several years added up to, perhaps, four.

I'm not sure why this is.

I'd be interested in the letters, for certain.

The Good Reverend Roger

#2
October 02, 2013, 08:32:34 PM
Quote from: LMNO, PhD (life continues) on October 02, 2013, 08:26:54 PM
I feel you.  I've been kind of embarassed that my total posts of content in the past several years added up to, perhaps, four.

I'm not sure why this is.

I'd be interested in the letters, for certain.

I can tell you why, I think, because I have recently started seeing it in myself.  I have begun to lose my Slack™.  I have somehow decided that I can't take the time to FUCK OFF at work.  I am becoming a SUIT, no matter how many lies I tell myself on the weekend, or however many posts I make here (which has frankly become about as rebellious as playing Minesweeper).  It's all just lying to myself.

My priorities are all fucked up.  I am worried about things that don't matter...Which is why I've mostly just been mailing it in for the last few months (well, that and a ~ 5% response to view ratio on new threads, which means I'm not inspiring anyone with my rants, so why am I ranting?  It's basically become just a form of fapping.).

So, you know, I have to go fill out that TPS report.  It's important.



" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

Salty

#3
October 02, 2013, 08:40:10 PM
There's certainly some monstering that needs doing out there.

I hope you find a way that works.
The world is a car and you're the crash test dummy.

The Good Reverend Roger

#4
October 02, 2013, 08:42:17 PM
Quote from: Alty on October 02, 2013, 08:40:10 PM
There's certainly some monstering that needs doing out there.

I hope you find a way that works.

I'll figure something out.  I have to...What I'm doing these days is as about as "Discordian" as playing fucking GOLF.  And you know what THAT means.  AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.

I have allowed myself to get isolated, and to assign value to things based strictly on nostalgia.

Which isn't quite seeing the world the way it really is, is it?
" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

The Good Reverend Roger

#5
October 02, 2013, 08:48:05 PM
Quote from: Dirty Old Uncle Roger on October 02, 2013, 08:32:34 PM
Quote from: LMNO, PhD (life continues) on October 02, 2013, 08:26:54 PM
I feel you.  I've been kind of embarassed that my total posts of content in the past several years added up to, perhaps, four.

I'm not sure why this is.

I'd be interested in the letters, for certain.

I can tell you why, I think, because I have recently started seeing it in myself.  I have begun to lose my Slack™.  I have somehow decided that I can't take the time to FUCK OFF at work.  I am becoming a SUIT, no matter how many lies I tell myself on the weekend, or however many posts I make here (which has frankly become about as rebellious as playing Minesweeper).  It's all just lying to myself.

My priorities are all fucked up.  I am worried about things that don't matter...Which is why I've mostly just been mailing it in for the last few months (well, that and a ~ 5% response to view ratio on new threads, which means I'm not inspiring anyone with my rants, so why am I ranting?  It's basically become just a form of fapping.).

So, you know, I have to go fill out that TPS report.  It's important.

Didn't quite say that right.

LMNO, when's the last time you properly lost your shit?

It's been a solid year for me.  Well, 11 months, anyway.
" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

LMNO

#6
October 02, 2013, 08:57:54 PM
Like, as in Saturday Night?

The Good Reverend Roger

#7
October 02, 2013, 08:58:17 PM
" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

LMNO

#8
October 02, 2013, 09:14:19 PM
Well, there's Gay Bar, then there's SUPERULTRADISCO P-TOWN GAY BAR CAFTAN REALNESS.


Dance like no one's watching? Fuck that. Dance like the eyes of god are on you.

That was June.

The Good Reverend Roger

#9
October 02, 2013, 09:22:44 PM
Quote from: LMNO, PhD (life continues) on October 02, 2013, 09:14:19 PM
Well, there's Gay Bar, then there's SUPERULTRADISCO P-TOWN GAY BAR CAFTAN REALNESS.


Dance like no one's watching? Fuck that. Dance like the eyes of god are on you.

That was June.

RAH!

What about July, August, and September?

Because I am thinking that I need to find something NEW.  I thought I had found it with Xerocraft, but they are a weird mix of MAD SCIENCE (including a robot that mixes perfect cocktails) and people who in every other way are allergic to weirdness of any kind.

And the art crowd in this town?  BLARG!  I mean, I expect a certain percentage of an art crowd to be Too Cool To Have Fun, but they're ALL like that, here.  Even the pervert bars have gone tame on me.

THIS TOWN IS TOO FUCKING SMALL.  It's like I live inside of Wade's skull.  Everything's SLOW and QUIET...It's almost like the IRL version of PD.  Everyone's waiting to be entertained, instead of DOING IT THEMSELVES, and the people I DO want to hang out with are largely too busy or on opposing shifts (Hell, Nigel is the only person who will reliably speak with me here, and she's so damn busy now she hasn't got time to inhale, much less post).

THIS TOWN IS TOO FUCKING TAME.  Oh, it still EATS people, but it does it in BORING WAYS now.  And when I freak out, nobody joins me anymore.  They all just sort of STARE and moan about "braaaaains".

Fucking zombiepocalypse already happened.  Only they don't EAT you, they just VIEW you (and I'm not talking about PD this time).

I live in the land of the dead.  A vast fucking mausoleum full of people who still think they have to go to work after they died. 

I'm bouncing off the walls here, LMNO, but they're elastic, and I just sorta bounce back. 

" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

East Coast Hustle

#10
October 02, 2013, 09:27:46 PM
You need a trip to the wetlands.

I have an extra bedroom and a schedule that leaves my life highly conducive to wee-hours weirdness when I'm not working.
Rabid Colostomy Hole Jammer of the Coming Apocalypse™

The Devil is in the details; God is in the nuance.


Some yahoo yelled at me, saying 'GIVE ME LIBERTY OR GIVE ME DEATH', and I thought, "I'm feeling generous today.  Why not BOTH?"

Dildo Argentino

#11
October 02, 2013, 09:32:46 PM
Come and visit.
Not too keen on rigor, myself - reminds me of mortis

The Good Reverend Roger

#12
October 02, 2013, 09:42:20 PM
Quote from: Jet City Hustle on October 02, 2013, 09:27:46 PM
You need a trip to the wetlands.

Yes.  Yes, I do.

QuoteI have an extra bedroom and a schedule that leaves my life highly conducive to wee-hours weirdness when I'm not working.

Only if there's people to punch inna nose.
" It's just that Depeche Mode were a bunch of optimistic loveburgers."
- TGRR, shaming himself forever, 7/8/2017

"Billy, when I say that ethics is our number one priority and safety is also our number one priority, you should take that to mean exactly what I said. Also quality. That's our number one priority as well. Don't look at me that way, you're in the corporate world now and this is how it works."
- TGRR, raising the bar at work.

Ben Shapiro

#13
October 03, 2013, 05:51:40 AM
Somalia,butt ass naked, and one rusty spoon. Glorious times indeed.

Ben Shapiro

#14
October 03, 2013, 05:55:44 AM
I've been lurking past threads especially the hall of fame ones. Been having fun with my brother more, and my wife is trying to be more social. New England is still on for me this month.

Have you thought about doing some little brother/big brother type program?
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