Rant 100: Chaoism

[Irreverend Hugh, KSC]

Rant 100
Chaoism

"Magic must enter the popular consciousness using a series of Trojan horses."
-Peter J. Carroll (Fra. Stokastikos 127, Our Pestilence Pope Pete I of Chaos)

"We dance a geometry of wizardry and wind the threads about our prey."
-Marjorie Cameron (on stupidity; journal entry dated Jan. 21st, 1962)

There are no gods, therefore you must research and seek to worship every one of them. There are no inherently self-existing conscious entities, therefore you must strive to assert your inherent will to independence. There are no ways to maintain your hatreds and your loves, therefore you find yourself trapped by them. There are no ways out of here, and the realization of this fact is the key that can destroy your self-imposed limits and create a new being that, even if misunderstood by those who are barely able to see, is the beginning of the wildest experiences that any bundle of self-facets could ever share.

You want to destroy order, use more order. You want to destroy disorder, use more disorder. You want to provoke and/or promote the freedom of chaos, then do absolutely nothing. For Chaos is all around you, through you, in you and it is you, as it is. The illusion of chaos being somewhere else is just a low-grade practical joke that chaos is playing on your mind at all of our expenses. You claim to know this chaos? Liar! Every moment in which you have gotten to some understanding or knowledge of chaos is left behind in the past in the microsecond or so before you even get to feel "!" And She is always changing. You are always changing. (As the Witches say "She changes everything She touches and everything She touches changes.")

You can only think of Chaos as a blind idiot god (or "force," which is the correct atheist theological term) in direct proportion to your own blindness and idiocy. Chaos is also clairvoyant and omniscient as much as it could be blind or stupid. As a seeker, or creator, or co-conspirator of the advent of the Pan-Daemon-Aeon in your mind, and among the world around you, you may have learned that the best way to contribute is to do what everyone else is doing. One of the only differences is that you may actually know why you do what others around you are doing. Another difference is that your actions may ensigilize your sorcery into everything you do. And like a virus, it will spread from carrier to carrier, replicating itself among other people's minds. Without even trying, you achieve results.

You may choose to overthrow all beliefs, but you must first make yourself a true-believer out of them. You may choose to inject your aggression into reality and then act out like maniac, but you must learn to hate yourself. You may choose to free yourself from desire, but only if you know the experience of satiating it until glutted. You may choose a peaceful life of non-maleficence, but only if you can accept and acknowledge the violence from within. There are many other such angles in the geometry of truths and lies that dance and swirl around in our minds vying for our devoted attentions and adulation. Pay no heed to any of their claims. Break the shackles of "meaning" and "meaningless." Get out at once, and not piecemeal by getting U first or T last or any other such method except for the one best for you.

Become the revolution you are seeking to start. Remember it is the way you live that counts more than any scheming or planning or ideological philosophizing. Instead of trying to start fights for a better life, start to live better. As much as any Chaoist seeks to change the world, the same Chaoist seeks to keep it exactly the way it is. The worst outrage ever inflicted is the overthrow of outrage, but there is infinite merit in the flux itself. Just don't become too visible to those people still haunted by demons, unless you want to take on the fate of one of those demons.

If do not find what you seek, create it or find something or someone else to seek. You can seek to disprove in the efficiency of magic, but you should know that such proof is one of the easiest things to create. And your belief in the impossibility affects nothing but your own choices. Know inside yourself that in this birthing period of the Chaoist age, your mental debunking of magic only extends as far as your neurons, and it will only make it that much easier for Chaoist conspiracies to subvert you. In the end, the purityrannical disbelief in magic is about as effective in stopping others' enchantments as the disbelief in sunlight would be in making night suddenly appear.

The children of magic are responsible for the creation and evolution of the human species' languages and we are coming back to reclaim our works of art. The witches have come to take back their lands and homes. You call the side-effects of all of this "doom" because, in a way, it is the end of what you know. You can say that this idea is hogwash, but what have you to offer up in its stead?

If it is not crazy enough, then it is not crazy enough to be true, and is therefore not even worth the merit of branding it false. The greatest sigil you will ever enchant is your ongoing life and its various experiences and streams of consciousness. Consider it a "hyper sigil," if you will, with you being the Author, or the adept playing out whatever tricks and tapestries and patterns that your empty-handed magic deals with. The greatest successes of the Chaoist can not be measured in any understanding of the term. And the greatest failures somehow become changed in an endless alchemy of tantric conspiracy against the prerequisite limitations imposed from anywhere. These limitations loose their ability to contain you. They are no longer prerequisites, but tools that can be used or discarded at the discretion of the Chaoist. Seek to know thyself but know the jokes inherent in the search.

July 22nd, 2005

-Irreverend Hugh (Pope Tequilarius Malignatus), KSC