I think I found a bar...

[PopeTom]

I think I've found a bar to my own BIP.  Now I just need to figure out how to pry it loose.

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What am I doing at Hi-Fi?

I was getting a steak bomb, that's what.  But how did I get there?  I had left work at ten of Midnight.  I was on lunch, I needed something to eat but I didn't know what I wanted.  All I knew for sure is I didn't want another goddamn cold cut sandwich. 

I work in Kenmore Sq. so if I take a right out of the parking garage and then another right I could pass by An Tua Nua, possibly see some of the Ceremony regulars out smoking.  Unfortunately a gate that closes off the road in that direction ruined this simple plan.  So I turned around.  Then my mind started to wander. 

While I was careful driving I wasn't paying attention to where I was going.  In fairly short order I found myself crossing the BU Bridge.  For a moment I came back to my senses and asked myself why I was driving this way, I figured that I could just get on Memorial Drive and head to the 24/7 McDonald's on Rt. 28.  Next thing I know I'm heading down Brookline St. in Cambridge, I could see the traffic signal where the street dumps out onto Mass. Ave. 

'Hi-Fi,' I thought to myself, 'I can get a steak bomb or something.  At least it's warm food.'  So I did that, I got myself a steak bomb sub.  You know what?  Without the power of drunk it tastes like ass.

But getting lost and just finding myself in Central Sq. has made me think.  Ever since my last birthday I've felt irritable and agitated.  I've mostly contributed these feelings to having lost my focus.  But tonight, just driving and ending up where I ended up, not knowing where I wanted to go, or really having any purpose or place to go to in the first place, made me think.  Perhaps the problem isn't that I have lost my focus, perhaps my focus has just shifted to the wrong things.

Lately I've been mostly worried about financial problems, health problems, and job problems.  Most of my waking hours are spent thinking about how to extract myself from a lot of shit I just don't like being at the center of.  It has gone so far that other aspects of my life, aspects I should be able to just relax and enjoy are also sources or worry, agitation, and even a little bit of anger.

I think somewhere rather then living life I've allowed life to just sort of happen to me.

The thought makes me uncomfortable.  It used to be if I needed to make a decision I'd pick whatever seemed like it would be the most fun.  Now when I make one I find myself considering money, or thinking about the things that could go wrong, or even time wasted on something I know is a good time but won't last until 'happily ever after'.

While I am certain I can extract myself from this unpleasant worldview I am unsure how to go about doing it.  I had slack once, and every so often I catch an all to brief whiff of it's sweet scent.  I also had less hesitation in indulging my whim.  I need to rediscover my ability to do that again.  Perhaps a road trip is in order, or time spent with friends doing something that isn't the same old same old.  I was, not too long ago, happy.  I cannot see a reason why I shouldn't be able to find my way back there.

[Triple Zero]

> Perhaps a road trip is in order, or time spent with friends doing something that isn’t the same old same old

i say you don't wait for that to happen, but start right here right now.

why not give yourself a headstart, and do it right now, the moment you read this line? get up, walk around, and do something in the general direction of whatever this thing, slack, you perceive is missing from your life.

the road trip or time with friends that is not same old is more likely to happen sooner if you start shifting gears right now. it'll probably also be more fun.

[PopeTom]

Spontaneity among my peer group has sucked for a long time.

Though I think for myself Wednesday shall involve myself, my camera, and the Boston MFA having a little chat.

[Darth Cupcake]

You totally drove past A) my office and B) the apartment I'm moving to on Saturday. Ooh, creepy. 

I quite hear you on the situation, though, and I applaud you for your plans to take action. It's Thursday now... Did Wednesday happen as planned? I know I have a long list of "things to do to make life better" that I just keep setting aside. That's why I'm so violently determined to finish this damn NaNoWriMo thing--at least I'm doing it, even if I'm doing a shitty job of it and at the last fuckin' minute. I'm forcing myself to break out of routine. It's too easy to fall into thinking about what's "best for the long term" (for example, I could be responsible about my credit card bill, or I could buy a new bed and stop sleeping on a fucking futon... Oh, the weighty decisions!). What's easiest, etc.

I hope your Wednesday plan worked out. And keep with it.

I can also recommend you some super great little places around the Central/Inman Squares area to get food that doesn't suck.

[PopeTom]

You totally drove past A) my office and B) the apartment I'm moving to on Saturday. Ooh, creepy. 

It's preemptive stalking,  I like to get the creepy shit out of my system before I actually meet someone.   

It's Thursday now... Did Wednesday happen as planned?

Things did not turn out as planned, Wednesday and Thursday turned into job interview days.  Which in the long run is good as by this upcoming summer 7.5 years of hell working as a contractor will finally come to an end.  I will once again have paid time off.

I can also recommend you some super great little places around the Central/Inman Squares area to get food that doesn't suck.

Thanks for the offer but after Dec. 17th I will once again only be eating in Central Sq. while drunk.

[LMNO]

I can also recommend you some super great little places around the Central/Inman Squares area to get food that doesn't suck.

::Raises hand::


What you found?

[Darth Cupcake]

I can also recommend you some super great little places around the Central/Inman Squares area to get food that doesn't suck.

::Raises hand::


What you found?

Over in Inman as follows:

Spice and Rice has superbly delicious Thai and Japanese food. I like their lunch deals.

All-star Sandwich Bar is fantastic sammiches at very reasonable prices, and only about two doors down from Christina's, where you can get really excellent ice cream.

There's the 1369 Coffeehouse in both Inman and Central that serves really great coffee (perfect espresso, usually!), as well as stab-yourself-in-the-jugular-cause-life-is-so-good brownies, and regular things like quiche and pizza bagels, etc.

In Central Square, the other night I went to Tavern in the Square and it was really quite good. Had some fantastic sweet potato fries, which are one of my favorite things ever, and the rest of the menu looked delicious. Also got more sloshed than one ought to on a Monday night off their super tasty cocktails.

There's a start!

[LMNO]

Ok, I know about those.

The sandwich shop is great, Mrs LMNO and i go there a lot on weekends.

Stay the hell away from the Tavern.  Just another pub.


Also, if you like meat, check out that Brazillian place the Midwest Grill, on Cambridge st.

[Suu]

D-Cup and I couldn't find a fucking bar for shit on Saturday, however.  Nothing was open.

[LMNO]

?

Where were you, and at what time?

[Darth Cupcake]

It was about 5:15 and we were in Central and Inman. Enormous Room was closed (quoi?!), MidEast and Zuzu were on restaurant style, so we went over to Inman and Bukowski is closed for renovations... I completely forgot about the Druid, though, which was silly of me. In the end, we went down to J J Foley's, cause Suu had to get back on the train at South Station anyways. But it was a silly time.

[Suu]

Plus Foley's = cheap and desolate.

[LMNO]

The Field, People's Republic, The Phoenix. (Central)

The Druid, the Thirsty Scholar, the Overdraught. (Inman)

The B-Side,  The Cambrider Brewing Co, O'Doyles. (Kendall)

[Suu]

Next time, we're just calling you.

[Darth Cupcake]

Next time, you'd better not be such a jerk and actually come out! Ya jerk!