I'm Not Really Anything Anymore.

[Dimocritus]

Just a brain-fart. (try to) Enjoy.

When I was young, chronologically speaking, I used to consider myself a catholic. My parents were catholics, as was most of the rest of my family (not to mention that those of my family that were not catholics were talked about unfavoably while they weren't around) and, so far as I knew, so was the rest of the world. It seemed to make sense. At the time. However, fact and history painted a much different picture, so, as far as I could deduce, there was only one logical step to take. And, while I still had things similar to faith and spirituality within me, I left the church.

For a time, I considered myself a punker, and by extention, a musician, a real rebel's rebel. Over time, I started more than a few bands, and proceeded to turn my school into a zoo of howling lunatics. While punk asked a lot of questions, it offered little in the way of answers. Punk, itself, is paradoxical, it exists through non-existence, and furthermore, was treated as a pop-culture fashion, and was stripped of most, if not all, validity. So, while I may retain a rebellious streak and play in a punk-style band, I left the scene.

For another moment in time, I considered myself smart. Could you blame me with so many cabbages walking about disguised as people? It's an easy thing to do when you deny that there are some truly intelligent people on this planet, which I did. But, considering myself smart, I had no other options but to recognize and accept my own sheer average-ness. Now, still concerned with seeking knowledge, I left that false comfort behind.

At other times, I had considered myself either "single" or "taken," choosing to be either in a relationship or not. Only to come to realize that I am not alone, and I do not belong to anyone. So, while I cherish and enjoy the relationships I have with friends, I could no longer be bothered by the "status" of said relationships.

Just recently, I considered myself a Discordian. A "really real" Discordian. The humor, the subversivity, the pseudo-religious attributes harmonized with many things from my past. It got me off of my ass and taught me how to be active in what I beleive. It taught me that new ideas and technology were not things to be shunned. But, just like my first delusion, if it's taken too seriously, it starts to become things that it was never intended to be. So, while I still love a good posterGASM, (un)friendly debate and the introduction of new ideas, I cannot truly say that that is what I am, the whole of my being.

So, here I am, emptying my head. And it could be said that I'm not really, fully, anything anymore.

And I like it.

[East Coast Hustle]

I like this. The value of leaving behind artificially-imposed identity markers really resonates with me.

[The Good Reverend Roger]

Welcome to bipedalism, Dimo.   

[NotPublished]

Its somewhat freeing, there is no real need to label yourself - its somewhat limiting. It can become stagnating when the label is taken too seriously. Some are fine with that, others just get bored by it

[Payne]

I know what I am.

I'm The Motherfuckin' Messiah, and the only way to prove me wrong on that is to crucify me. If I don't rise in three days I was wrong - but it won't matter 'cause I'll be dead. If I do rise after three days you're all fucked forever.

[.]

This is a rather good rant, or whatever you would like to call it. Your thoughts are very much in order and it flows nicely. In my eyes, it's a huge realization that there really isn't any way to label things. People have a habit of having to put everything into a category with a label. They fear what is not labeled and what is not easily categorized. I figure because it's just that whole "If I can't label it, then it must be different, therefore, I have to fear it."
But on the other hand, I do agree that people take it too far and let their lack of identity identify them. There's a happy medium somewhere and I think that its always a good thing to find yourself in that area. Don't let people label you, or do, because in all honesty who's really going to give a shit when they have pegged you something and you simply do not give them the time of day for doing so.

Hope that all makes a bit of sense,  I just woke up.

[Dimocritus]

Welcome to bipedalism, Dimo.   

Thanks for having me.

This is a rather good rant, or whatever you would like to call it. Your thoughts are very much in order and it flows nicely. In my eyes, it's a huge realization that there really isn't any way to label things. People have a habit of having to put everything into a category with a label. They fear what is not labeled and what is not easily categorized. I figure because it's just that whole "If I can't label it, then it must be different, therefore, I have to fear it."
But on the other hand, I do agree that people take it too far and let their lack of identity identify them. There's a happy medium somewhere and I think that its always a good thing to find yourself in that area. Don't let people label you, or do, because in all honesty who's really going to give a shit when they have pegged you something and you simply do not give them the time of day for doing so.

Hope that all makes a bit of sense,  I just woke up.

It makes perfect sense, and I just woke up too.  Honestly, I'm surprised that you described that as having a good flow. It was just one thought that I expanded on very quickly, so thank you.

I know what I am.

I'm The Motherfuckin' Messiah, and the only way to prove me wrong on that is to crucify me. If I don't rise in three days I was wrong - but it won't matter 'cause I'll be dead. If I do rise after three days you're all fucked forever.

Hi Payne! 

Its somewhat freeing, there is no real need to label yourself - its somewhat limiting. It can become stagnating when the label is taken too seriously. Some are fine with that, others just get bored by it

Not sure why, but I feel like giving you a noogie.

[.]

This is a rather good rant, or whatever you would like to call it. Your thoughts are very much in order and it flows nicely. In my eyes, it's a huge realization that there really isn't any way to label things. People have a habit of having to put everything into a category with a label. They fear what is not labeled and what is not easily categorized. I figure because it's just that whole "If I can't label it, then it must be different, therefore, I have to fear it."
But on the other hand, I do agree that people take it too far and let their lack of identity identify them. There's a happy medium somewhere and I think that its always a good thing to find yourself in that area. Don't let people label you, or do, because in all honesty who's really going to give a shit when they have pegged you something and you simply do not give them the time of day for doing so.

Hope that all makes a bit of sense,  I just woke up.

It makes perfect sense, and I just woke up too.  Honestly, I'm surprised that you described that as having a good flow. It was just one thought that I expanded on very quickly, so thank you.

You're very welcome. The best writing comes out of something that you just spew out. If you let ideas sit in your head they usually ferment too long. 

[Bu🤠ns]

Nice post, dimo.

It seems that by standing nowhere you have frame to see seriousness for what it is and not get too caught up in it.

[Dimocritus]

You're very welcome. The best writing comes out of something that you just spew out. If you let ideas sit in your head they usually ferment too long. 

You're right. Though, if I were writing this for a specific purpose, I'd have put a bit more time into it. It's kinda drafty.

Nice post, dimo.

It seems that by standing nowhere you have frame to see seriousness for what it is and not get too caught up in it.

Thanks, Burns. That, and without all that junk, you (this is a general "you")don't have to judge things based on what your beleif systems dictate to you (because you no longer have any, or they have been reduced to just the core essentials). It's very freeing, but, admittedly, it can be a really scary thing to do.

[.]

You're very welcome. The best writing comes out of something that you just spew out. If you let ideas sit in your head they usually ferment too long. 

You're right. Though, if I were writing this for a specific purpose, I'd have put a bit more time into it. It's kinda drafty.

Well, yes, but things in their rough are sometimes a bit more realistic in their own right. You don't have to be a fantastic writer to get your point across in this sense.

[NotPublished]

Its somewhat freeing, there is no real need to label yourself - its somewhat limiting. It can become stagnating when the label is taken too seriously. Some are fine with that, others just get bored by it

Not sure why, but I feel like giving you a noogie.

Everyone gangs on me

[Dimocritus]

Its somewhat freeing, there is no real need to label yourself - its somewhat limiting. It can become stagnating when the label is taken too seriously. Some are fine with that, others just get bored by it

Not sure why, but I feel like giving you a noogie.

Everyone gangs on me