Occams Razor

[P3nT4gR4m]

I'll go one better than first hand, I'll give you first person. When I'm at my most creative it feels no different from when I was clinically batshit. That's the reason I can't bring myself to stay in that place for too long at a time. It's the fear I'll pass the point of no return.

Can you enter and leave what you describe as 'that place' at will, or does something have to drive it?

Haha! I dunno if I'd describe it as "will" it's more like a mood that comes along. When I feel myself going into it I can either go with it or fight it - that's the "will element" but as to actually summoning it in the first place, no. I think maybe I could but I never really tried. Eventually I have to fight it tho or I'd be right back in hell.

Does it anger you that when you are at your best is when you can least enjoy it because you have to keep your guard up all the time?

If you don't want to answer my questions I understand.

Whether I'm at my best or not my guard is up. What's happened in the past prevents me from ever letting it down. Doesn't make me angry, it's just the way it is. Being in control is much preferable to the alternative but that's a conscious decision I've made. Would be a bit dumb to get angry about my own choices, no?

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I'll go one better than first hand, I'll give you first person. When I'm at my most creative it feels no different from when I was clinically batshit. That's the reason I can't bring myself to stay in that place for too long at a time. It's the fear I'll pass the point of no return.

Can you enter and leave what you describe as 'that place' at will, or does something have to drive it?

Haha! I dunno if I'd describe it as "will" it's more like a mood that comes along. When I feel myself going into it I can either go with it or fight it - that's the "will element" but as to actually summoning it in the first place, no. I think maybe I could but I never really tried. Eventually I have to fight it tho or I'd be right back in hell.

Does it anger you that when you are at your best is when you can least enjoy it because you have to keep your guard up all the time?

If you don't want to answer my questions I understand.

Whether I'm at my best or not my guard is up. What's happened in the past prevents me from ever letting it down. Doesn't make me angry, it's just the way it is. Being in control is much preferable to the alternative but that's a conscious decision I've made. Would be a bit dumb to get angry about my own choices, no?

Makes a lot of sense. Do you drink or get high?

[P3nT4gR4m]

Yup! Not on school nights, tho. There's not much difference between booze and insanity for me - both should only be binged in moderation 

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Yup! Not on school nights, tho. There's not much difference between booze and insanity for me - both should only be binged in moderation