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Anyway, hi there PD. I'm here because I'm miserable, cranky, and tired, and according to the newsfeed I'm in the perfect mood for PD.com.
Since getting my thyroid disease treated in August, my range of emotions has expended past "vague sense of dying" that defined the previous six months. I have added feeling sad, stupid, and lonely to the mix.
This too shall pass and all that, but fuck it. I feel like whuppin' on some motherfucker.
Hashimoto's or Grave's?
Welcome to the "My immune system is so fucking badass it's eating my thyroid alive" club.
I've never seen the appeal of a happy ending: I love massages, and it doesn't take much to put me into a deep relaxation coma. It's in that state of bliss that I have zero sexual interest in anything.
I'm getting married. In three days.
We can dream.
Well, at least Sorweel should come out of things OK. Unless he literally runs into the No-God or goes on to kill Kelhus, that boy's unstoppable.
Or, if the theories are correct at least, he runs into Kelmonas. The fan theory is that Kel's a narindar of Ajokli, and thus stands outside the sight of the gods, including Yatwer and her White Luck Warrior. He sacrified that beetle as an offering, a murder done for no other reason than "because".
Ajokli is the god of tricksters, thieves and assassins...a description that fits Kel to a t. I also wonder if Ajokli can see the No-God and Consult..."He only seems such [the Fool] because he sees what the others do not see... What you do not see ... The blindness of the sighted". Which also makes me wonder if there is a link between Ajokli and the Solitary God of the Cishaurim...the reference to the blindness of the sighted, the fact that the Psukhe is undetectable by other magi and even unknown to the Consult, and that the Cishaurim wage war against the followers of the Tusk. Ajokli, via the nameless narindar in the White Luck Warrior notes that his cult alone is persecuted by the Tusk.
I'm also somewhat amused by the many parallels one can draw between Ajokli, narindar and our favourite inscrutable trickster god, the Anticipation of Mephala himself, Vivec. Narindar are holy assassins the gods send, but narindar of Ajokli are ritual assassins for whom the act is holy, and are asked to kill without reference to their own cares. Of course, Vivec is the Tribunal replacement for Mephala, whom the Morag Tong assassins (and maybe the Dark Brotherhood, if the Night Mother is Mephala. Of course, one reading of the 36 sermons suggests Vivec is in fact the Night Mother). Assassins remove the act of emotion from murder, which in turn makes it an act of destruction...and destruction is another form of creation. Murder and enlightenment, combined.
Incidentally, narindar = narinder = narendra = "lord of men" in Sanskrit. Just putting that out there.
I got the book a month ago, but I'm digging into R Scott Bakker's The Great Ordeal in earnest now.
As always, Bakker treads the line between "absurdly overwrought" and "lovingly crafted" writing. I can see a lot of people getting into this series and wanting to smash Bakker's keyboard. I'm a fan.
I need to get the Kindle version. I have the hardback, but since I read all the others on the Kindle, it feels...wrong. I can't highlight things or compare notes easily.
That said, eating Sranc was a fucking terrible idea.