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Messages - (Doktor (Nephew Twiddleton (Twid)) Blight)

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So, had a workplace injury last night.  UAnd as the result of a completely preventable workplace accident, I have ended up losing a thumb.

Well, part of a thumb.

Well, half the nail of the thumb.  On my non-dominant hand.

But it really fucking hurts.

Ouch.... I cringed a little bit

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Thanks CPD! Congrats Suu!

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I struggle with my own shit sometimes. There have been a few times, and there are still occasional times where I'm just like yeah, just chuck me in a box and get rid of me. But probably the most profound though I had against that was how would that fuck up Twidsister. And this was before those genes started messing with her head. I couldn't do that to her before when she was a kid, and I definitely couldn't do it now that I know that she goes through those same bouts (she turns 18 this year). Before it was like, how could someone explain that to her, and now it's what sort of example would that set? I wouldn't want her to do that, even if I wasn't around to mourn it.

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You bring up good points there, Nigel.

You also brought up an excellent point of what if it was your kid.

If my parents killed themselves, I'd never forgive them.

If my kids killed themselves, I'd never forgive myself.

Either way it's not my fault, but that's an interesting distinction.

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So, what it comes down to, I guess, is yes, I would rather my parents suffer than die. Because at least they're still alive and have some glimmer of hope. And they're both stubborn fucking assholes so there's no excuse there. I wouldn't forgive them for it. I'd never get over it.

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No, not really.  Because not only do you have the fact that you were abandoned, not only do you never have the chance to figure out why, and spend who knows how long blaming yourself, you find yourself wondering what you could have done that was so horrible that you drove someone who you thought loved you away.  THAT, you get to wrestle with for however long it takes, and THEN you deal with not only the loss, but the question of what you could have done to stop it, if only you'd been there, if only you'd tried harder, if only you'd seen...

Either way it's fucking  horrible. The only advantage I can see to alienating your family and then abandoning them is that it allows them to write you off as an asshole, which, trust me, they will want to do even if you weren't, because suicide is a complete and utter asshole thing to do to people who love you. The anger after a loved one commits suicide is deep and frightening, alongside the self-recrimination, guilt, and unreconcilable regret that never goes away.

My mother's godson committed suicide. I didn't know him very well, but it was my mother's godson, so I went with her and she was pretty upset. He was a teenager. The line for his wake was around the parking lot. Mom and I were in line for an hour and a half. About 20 minutes into it, she said to me, "if only he could see how many people would show up for this, maybe he wouldn't have done it." And you know what, she was right.

I myself have a pretty complex relationship with my parents. I'm not sure either of them realize how complex it is. But I would be absolutely gutted if either one of them offed themselves. I don't have to like them to love them unconditionally. And I'm saying this as a 32 year old.

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Today ended well.



Congratulations, Twid!

I considered joining as well, but still haven't gotten to it. I really probably should.

My main reasons for doing it was that it would look good and that I could get discounts on tuition, so $60 investment. But, the idea of having a group of fellow nerds helping me out where I might be having trouble and reciprocating is also appealing.

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http://www.technologyreview.com/view/526111/how-the-internet-is-taking-away-americas-religion/

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[Computer Scientist Allen Downey] says that the demise is the result of several factors but the most controversial of these is the rise of the Internet. He concludes that the increase in Internet use in the last two decades has caused a significant drop in religious affiliation.

It goes on to indicate that the University of Chicago's General Social Survey's data indicates a other factors causing people to lose their religion.  Those are, a decline in religious upbringing and an increase in college level  education.  Downey says those stats are rather pail in comparison to the data of increased internet use.



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If this third factor exists, it must have specific characteristics. It would have to be something new that was increasing in prevalence during the 1990s and 2000s, just like the Internet. “It is hard to imagine what that factor might be,” says Downey.

I thought perhaps that the increase in science and technology might account for the unknown data. The Internet is just a smaller factor in increasing knowledge acceleration.   I mean amazing things seem to happen almost weekly. To my mind that tends to trump faith a bit.

What say you, folks?

My loss of faith in the afterlife is due to the internet, and specifically to this site. Even more particularly, LMNO and I taking a particular position in a conversation with Cram (with some input from Vex) about whether stepping on a Star Trek transporter and emerging on a planet, if away team you is still you. LMNO and I took the position that it was, because it's the pattern that defines you, not the composite atoms, because atoms don't have individuality, and further that your atoms always have to be in flux anyway, otherwise you would be a preserved specimen.

That lead me down a rabbit hole, ending with the question "where do I go between falling asleep and dreaming?"

It was the most uncomfortable question I've ever asked myself, and I had to reject any concept of the soul until data could back up why we stop experiencing anything during that period.

I haven't rejected the idea of god(s) because the definition is a slippery one. It's a useless word in the English language. I now attempt to find some sort of sacred meaning in the fact that life exists, and that a chemical (DNA) has a need to continue to maintain its existence (which is a delightfully absurd concept. Think about that. I'm a chemical. I need to continue to be this chemical. I must therefore find a way to continue to exist and make more of me. The instinct to survival and reproduction is freaking ridiculous on paper). That it evolves and gives opportunity for intelligent life to emerge to contemplate the universe. So I can't discount gods. I just have to reject certain conceptions of the word.

So, I think what's going on here is that the internet facilitates conversations that are unlikely face to face. Both in subject matter and geographical distance.

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And, yeah, it's at the point in the semester where I start doodling on my notes, as you can sort of see behind the frame.

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Today ended well.



Nice work!

The real work will be to make sure I don't get booted out for drooping grades when I take physics, chem and calculus in autumn.  :lulz:

I bet you'll do better than you think you will.

Thanks Net. :) I hope so.

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Today ended well.



Nice work!

The real work will be to make sure I don't get booted out for drooping grades when I take physics, chem and calculus in autumn.  :lulz:

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Aneristic Illusions / Re: You knew this was coming.
« on: April 16, 2014, 03:30:27 pm »
They won't fucking let up, will they?

Religious fanatics typically don't.

There's a really nasty provision in there.

Section 308? Edit: No I think I misread that.

It's 308.

Because the woman would have to PROVE rape or abortion to be exempted.  Now, how long does it take to convict a rapist?

About 2.5 years.

Damn, missed that implication.

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Aneristic Illusions / Re: You knew this was coming.
« on: April 16, 2014, 03:29:36 pm »
This one?
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No health care service furnished—

(1)by or in a health care facility owned or operated by the Federal Government; or
(2)by any physician or other individual employed by the Federal Government to provide health care services within the scope of the physician’s or individual’s employment, may include abortion.


or does it get worse?

Oh

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309.Application to District of Columbia
In this chapter:

(1)Any reference to funds appropriated by Federal law shall be treated as including any amounts within the budget of the District of Columbia that have been approved by Act of Congress pursuant to section 446 of the District of Columbia Home Rule Act (or any applicable successor Federal law).
(2)The term Federal Government includes the government of the District of Columbia.

Also:
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4.Prohibiting taxpayer funded abortions

I'm morally opposed to having my tax dollars pay for warfare and capital punishment. Can I have that prohibited too? Err.... on second thought having private companies run that would be far worse.

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Aneristic Illusions / Re: You knew this was coming.
« on: April 16, 2014, 03:00:20 pm »
They won't fucking let up, will they?

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