« on: September 12, 2016, 09:32:17 am »
I think the thing I need to keep uppermost in my mind when dealing with management is that they need me more than I need them, and that they are cowards.
I had a bracing chat with my own manager when he ambushed me during the training session the previous week. In fact, I was ambushed twice - first by an unscheduled staff meeting, and then by a follow up meeting. And because I was in pain (old injury flared up) and because I hadn't had much sleep and because I hate annual training, I was in a filthy mood and basically gave it to him, with both barrels.
He not only flinched, he backpedaled. It was a truly abject display, and has only increased my contempt for him. Try and call me out for doing my job in front of everyone, then cravenly apologise and claim you mispoke and no offence was meant in private? Pathetic. Keep me in the dark while praising my work to your bosses to make you look good? Claim my ideas as your own? Too bad you can't keep your lies straight and remember what you've told me from one week to the next. I have you. And if that's not enough, I have a parting gift from a student...a story that would look very bad, no matter what light it was presented in. He doesn't know that yet, but he doesn't need to. He's not the only one who can ambush people, only when I do it, I'm going to add significant emotional and mental stress to the surprise, because unlike him I'm a professional.
The department head hopes to use me, which is why he's not putting up a difficult front at the moment. But I also know he's a coward. He's a filthy misogynist, a man who verbally attacks and belittles women and raises his voice to students, but wouldn't dare raise his voice to me despite the extreme provocation I have given him in the past. He'll become angry, petulant, obstinate...but he can't stomach the idea of an assault on someone who might actually pose a physical threat, or at least that's how it seems. He wants my neutrality, so he can promote his spy to my manager's current position, and he thinks he has it...sadly, I gave ammunition to my manager during our chat regarding this spy, and how no-one actually respects or likes her. No-one respects or likes him either, so it's hardly an obstacle to the position, but it's something he can use, if he's not a complete moron (jury is still out on that). I may not be in a position to directly take him down, not surgically, but I'm sure as hell I could make his life a miserable line of investigations and meetings in the meantime. He's easily stressed...making him flip in front of someone important would end his career easily.
I have to admit, I kinda want them to do something stupid. I've kept quiet and made sure contingencies are in place, and now I'm pushing back and I'm just wondering how far I can push them, when they will snap and lash out. I can moderate my own response, to a degree, but I really want to see one of them go off the deep end. Because then I have no excuse not to bring this whole rotten edifice down.
And when I finally leave I may just do that anyway. You know, for shits and giggles.