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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #675 on: October 18, 2012, 07:00:04 pm »
Kai went and got blood work done this morning. So, there goes step 1.

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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #676 on: October 18, 2012, 07:10:28 pm »
In a real funk, and it only seems to be getting worse. Especially when my brain seems to be actively working against me trying to pull myself out of it. If I just stop and relax for a bit, I worry that I should be doing something, or I'm forgetting to do something or WHY ARE YOU JUST SITTING THERE NOT DOING THE LAUNDRY/CLEANING/COOKING/SOMETHING. If I go out and genuinely have fun and enjoy myself, I immediately feel guilty about it because you must have done something wrong, look at how stupid you must have looked, EVERYONE KNOWS YOU LOOKED LIKE AN ASS. They were just being nice because they felt bad, you know they're talking about you now. FFS, I can barely spend a day with my parents without thinking I screwed it up somehow. 

So then I don't do anything so that I can't make myself feel bad about it later. But I WANT to go out and talk to people, so I get more depressed, and withdrawn, resentful and angry and start lashing out at those around me. Feel bad about it later, and so on. And it builds up, and I'm stressed all the time and just so tired. And how do you explain that to anyone without sounding completely insane?

And this is all TMI, and probably won't do any good, but I just....don't know.

It's simple, really.  You lack Slack.  You worry about what other people think of you.  You worry that having a good time is somehow BADWRONG.  In many people, this leads them to join religious groups that frown on fun entirely.  In others, it leads to the situation you find yourself in. 

That's the EASY part.  The hard part is doing something ABOUT it.  My advice is to work with a therapist, combined with some exercise.  Assuming you can AFFORD a therapist.  If you can't, talk to Nigel, who may have some information on how to find publicly funded therapy.  If this turns out not to be an option, then there's The Cure.  That should be considered a last resort, of course, as it tends to turn you into a 44 year old, bitter old man that hates everyone and spends all his time NOT giving a shit what most people think.  That does, believe it or not, have some downsides.



This is AMAZING.  :lulz:

Also, Princezz, if a hike is too much of a commitment (and I know exactly what that feels like) if there is one thing, just one, I can recommend, it's that you go for a half hour walk every single day. The great thing is that it's only half an hour, and you don't need any equipment or special clothes. You can just pop out the front door, walk for fifteen minutes, and turn around. It should make a surprising difference in how you feel and think.

THIS. And you'll know that you got something done. It doesn't HAVE to be cleaning. Cleaning isn't the measure of a person, anyway. And thanks for the well-wishes.  :) The Instant Polio(TM) hurts a lot less today, I'm optimistic that I'll be OK fairly soon. Probably not in time to get out of town for the weekend like I planned, though...fuck.  :cry:

Kai, good luck...and keep in mind it still might NOT be that. Keep us posted.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #677 on: October 18, 2012, 07:16:14 pm »
My F5 key just broke.

I guess I'll come back when I get a new keyboard.

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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #678 on: October 18, 2012, 07:27:28 pm »
But it's not you who uses that one.

Even my keyboard only has s,d,i, l, o and part of k, n and m worn off.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #679 on: October 18, 2012, 07:31:56 pm »
But it's not you who uses that one.

Even my keyboard only has s,d,i, l, o and part of k, n and m worn off.

Yeah, but I don't feel like part of the creepy fucking voyeur's club without it.  I am alone.

Ranted my guts up.  It sank.  Ranted up some more in LMNO's thread.  Pretty sure he and I and NOBODY FUCKING ELSE looked at our posts.  Tempted to start an ain't it awful thread just fucking because someone MIGHT actually have a conversation.  Dug up a shitload of gut-busting rant music for Twid, on his request.  No response.

It's like 2/3rds of the people here don't have fingers or some shit.  Or Cain, LMNO, and myself aren't worth responding to.  Or people just like to, you know, watch.  Like THAT GUY.

GOOD ENOUGH TO READ, NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE ARSED TO RESPOND TO OR HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH.

Fuck that noise.  I'm nobody's porn stash, and I'm pretty sure the other people that can be ARSED to respond to anything aren't either.

Cue excuses.

Fuck.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #680 on: October 18, 2012, 07:36:50 pm »
You'll always be my porn stash, big boy.

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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #681 on: October 18, 2012, 07:39:50 pm »
Dude- i was listening to it while i was writing facade and it helped. I responded only to pixie in that thread because she asked me a question. I didnt respond to anyone else eithe because i havent gone through all of yours yet.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #682 on: October 18, 2012, 07:49:15 pm »
Yeah, well, put yourself in my shoes, and read the thread.

I'm not trying to scream at you, but there's been a lot of this going around.  People talking around people.  Or reading what they have to say, belching, and moving on to whatever else is out there.

It's frustrating as fuck.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #683 on: October 18, 2012, 07:49:55 pm »
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« Reply #684 on: October 18, 2012, 07:50:39 pm »
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As soon as I get to my laptop, that motherfucker is IN THERE.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #685 on: October 18, 2012, 07:54:03 pm »
Piss 'em off.

That usually works.  :lol:
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #686 on: October 18, 2012, 07:56:07 pm »
Piss 'em off.

That usually works.  :lol:

Nope.  Doesn't work.  This place is turning into a bad combo of EB&G and 23AE.

I'm still going to be here, but fuck if I'll put any effort into anything for a bunch of fucking voyeurs.  I NEED to rant, but I can do it at Scrubgenius, where at least I never had an expectation of being read and maybe even responded to by anyone other than Stang & Susie.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #687 on: October 18, 2012, 07:57:57 pm »
Piss 'em off.

That usually works.  :lol:

Nope.  Doesn't work.  This place is turning into a bad combo of EB&G and 23AE.

I'm still going to be here, but fuck if I'll put any effort into anything for a bunch of fucking voyeurs.  I NEED to rant, but I can do it at Scrubgenius, where at least I never had an expectation of being read and maybe even responded to by anyone other than Stang & Susie.

There is something horribly fucked up about a bunch of PDers not responding to being poked with a stick.
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #688 on: October 18, 2012, 08:00:29 pm »
Piss 'em off.

That usually works.  :lol:

Nope.  Doesn't work.  This place is turning into a bad combo of EB&G and 23AE.

I'm still going to be here, but fuck if I'll put any effort into anything for a bunch of fucking voyeurs.  I NEED to rant, but I can do it at Scrubgenius, where at least I never had an expectation of being read and maybe even responded to by anyone other than Stang & Susie.

There is something horribly fucked up about a bunch of PDers not responding to being poked with a stick.

TOO MUCH EFFORT.  MORE CHEETOHs, PLEASE.  AH, ENNUI, HOW I LOVE THEE!

WHAT KIND OF FUCKING CULT IS THIS, ANYFUCKINGWAY?
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Re: Can we talk about me now? (Open bar thread #3,494)
« Reply #689 on: October 18, 2012, 08:01:37 pm »
I will once i get home.

Near as i can tell no one read mine either.
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