I don't feel like I got as much outdoor activity this summer/fall as usual, so that could have something to do with it. Only one good hike, too

Or at least something to do with it not getting better. I probably should just start at least walking around the apartment complex parking lots if/since I can't seem to drag anyone else with me. Boyfriend and I are thinking of joining gym for the winter if we can afford it so that might help, and also with the tiredness/self-esteem issues too. Just to drag myself out of the house at least, since even if I'm being all tired/depressed at home I feel like I have the
potential to do some cleaning (Jesus, WTF with the cleaning). Once I do stuff I feel better, but the trick is making that step (and not feeling bad about it later).
And how do you explain that to anyone without sounding completely insane?
Personally, I think this may be a key to the solution. Do you have anyone who you can talk to without them judging or trying to "help" or "fix the problem"?
Dunno your situation, but this sounds like the perfect fit for talk therapy, if you can get it.
Yea, that's part of the problem I think. I don't feel real comfortable honestly venting to most people, so I bottle it up and it gets worse, and little bits of crazy start leaking out here and there. With most friends/family I'd feel judged and/or, more likely, get some variation of "LOL that's silly/crazy. You're fine! Cheer up! It's all in your head (yea, no shit)! Be happy!" which just leaves me feeling stupid for saying anything in the first place.
My boyfriend's probably the only one IRL that I trust not to judge me, but then I feel bad for spilling crazy all over him, which I probably shouldn't since it's better than exploding crazy at him at random intervals for reasons he can't understand since by that point I'm no longer rational, just hurt. Occassionally, he'll do the "well then stop" but not in the same patronizing way I feel I get from other people and usually more in a cheer up/we don't have time to talk about this right now since we're both getting ready for work right now/I feel bad but don't know to fix it/etc. I suppose I need better times to bring it up, but then, hate to spoil a good moment with sad things and all.
I have been debating going back to a therapist. Just need to convince myself to open up, that it's ok to do that instead of cleaning, and that even though "nothing's wrong", something might be, a little bit.
Thanks all, it does help to vent without the "LOL you're fine!" response