Bored-dumb

[Hoshiko]

See, I had the opposite effect. I get very talkative and giggly and everything seems freaking hilarious to me. My eyes focus on weird areas of people's faces and I can't look away. I do lose all motor function, though. Took me 5 minutes to get up and walk across the room and I was incredibly proud of myself for being able to push a button on the microwave.

I'll admit I did the touchdown dance afterward, even though I pushed the wrong button and burned my food.

But the intensity of focus on something that isn't funny but seems hysterical to me... that's why I never do it. I hate that feeling. I don't know how people drive or even walk like that, I could barely sit up.

I'll leave zoning out for when I'm sober. Much easier.

[Irreverend Hugh, KSC]

Sobriety is an acute illusion brought about by the lack of alcohol.

[agent compassion]

I get very talkative and giggly and everything seems freaking hilarious to me. My eyes focus on weird areas of people's faces and I can't look away. I do lose all motor function, though. Took me 5 minutes to get up and walk across the room and I was incredibly proud of myself for being able to push a button on the microwave.

   

yeah I remember being told a joke, a mild chuckler at best, and i could not stop laughing for a couple of minutes...

[East Coast Hustle]

oops...I seem to have wandered into a 9th grade study hall...

LIKE, OHMYGOD! WE SMOKED SOME POT AND DRANK SOME WINE COOLERS AND THEN HE TRIED TO MAKE OUT WITH ME! OHMYGOD!!!

[agent compassion]

Hey, this is the girl's room, buddy, who invited you? Nobody's asking you to make out with anyone.

[Eldora, Oracle of Alchemy]

I can do lots of meditations.  A lot of number related ones, breath counting, stuff like that.  It was like my mind got immune to that, one part of my mind would be counting and another part would be off in Lala Land, but not in meditation Lala Land.  So I would concentrate on different aspects of numbers, to make it more of a challenge, so I would be able to concentrate.  Like, not just counting the numbers, but also noticing whether or not they were primes.  Then the ones that aren't primes, factor them.  Or finding the fives, that's fun.  You can do that with almost any number, if you try hard enough. I also like the lotus one, where you pick a word for the center of the lotus, then do the first word that comes to your mind game.  And each of those is supposed to be a petal on the lotus.  I can quiet my mind pretty well, but it is never completely clear.  Except like I said before, while I was Reading the Trilogy and right after.  Nothingness.  Kind of spooky and I don't really have an explanation.  My mind wasn't especially tired, confused maybe, but not tired.  It may have been the cognitive dissonance, the constant, this is really a that, no it isn't, yes it is, game that Wilson plays.  

I also try to do the Zen thing, mindfulness, where you are really there for it, whatever you are doing.  No matter how trivial or mundane, exciting or thrilling, be right there in it.  I think that is part of the reason I have an easier time getting to orgasm than most women.  

Then there are a lot of meditations that are more of a distraction than anything.  "Pretend you are at the bottom of a pond, bubbles floating up, your troubles are in the bubbles..."  My mind will not let go of the fact that if I was at the bottom of a pond I would be drowning.  And logs going down the river with your thoughts on the logs.  I can hear the water which makes me have to go pee.  Yeah, I know, just call me the pain in the ass meditator.

And Horab, thanks, but I am not a flower and pretending to be one may not be my cup of tea.  And flames kind of freak me out in meditation.  Didn't before my apartment burned, but that is another story.  And thanks to Guido as well.  I'll have to see if I can find some gaps to merge my consciousness into. Hmmmm...Apparently everyone else is..doesn't...oh, nevermind.

[East Coast Hustle]

Hey, this is the girl's room, buddy, who invited you? Nobody's asking you to make out with anyone.

actually, this is MY room...you are all here at my behest...now leave me alone and continue with your drug-soaked lesbian make-out session....

[agent compassion]

Wanker!

[Eldora, Oracle of Alchemy]

Hey, this is the girl's room, buddy, who invited you? Nobody's asking you to make out with anyone.

actually, this is MY room...you are all here at my behest...now leave me alone and continue with your drug-soaked lesbian make-out session....

Yeah, you started, then a bunch of people said goodbye, even though you said weren't leaving right away, if ever, then there was some talk of pot smoking, other drugs in general, meditation.  This sentence above by you was the first reference to lesbians.  

[Bob the Mediocre]

I can quiet my mind pretty well, but it is never completely clear.  Except like I said before, while I was Reading the Trilogy and right after.  Nothingness.  Kind of spooky and I don't really have an explanation.  My mind wasn't especially tired, confused maybe, but not tired.  It may have been the cognitive dissonance, the constant, this is really a that, no it isn't, yes it is, game that Wilson plays.  

I have to be good at thinking about nothing, because most of the time I can't sleep when my brain is running and jumping from thought to thought. So I am kinda good at it, but every once in a while a random thought intrudes-5 of spades, now where did spades come from and what about the weird fortune cookies they have here and

[Cain]

I always found moving meditations easier.  Perhaps that is just due to martial arts.  I find it very easy to meditate whilst performing a pattern from traditional Tae Kwon Do, or some of the one person Ju-jitsu ones.

[Eldora, Oracle of Alchemy]

I can quiet my mind pretty well, but it is never completely clear.  Except like I said before, while I was Reading the Trilogy and right after.  Nothingness.  Kind of spooky and I don't really have an explanation.  My mind wasn't especially tired, confused maybe, but not tired.  It may have been the cognitive dissonance, the constant, this is really a that, no it isn't, yes it is, game that Wilson plays.  

I have to be good at thinking about nothing, because most of the time I can't sleep when my brain is running and jumping from thought to thought. So I am kinda good at it, but every once in a while a random thought intrudes-5 of spades, now where did spades come from and what about the weird fortune cookies they have here and

Thinking about weird shit that amounts to nothing is not the same as actually thinking about nothing.  Complete empty no-thing-ness.  The first time you get there it is like

Here I am...wasn't I

It is just that fast.  As soon as the realisation hits that you have completely emptied your mind, that realisation breaks the'spell' and becomes the thought that is there so there is no longer nothing there.  Understand why it is hard to get this from a book?  Or even by talking to someone?        

[Malaul]

I always found moving meditations easier.  Perhaps that is just due to martial arts.  I find it very easy to meditate whilst performing a pattern from traditional Tae Kwon Do, or some of the one person Ju-jitsu ones.

I work the same way
I need to move to figure out things anad think
hence why i go dancing a lot

the music moves me and my brian can just set me on neutral and it can just wander


I  have done some of my best figuring and majoc work while on the dance floor

[Bob the Mediocre]

Thinking about weird shit that amounts to nothing is not the same as actually thinking about nothing.  Complete empty no-thing-ness.  The first time you get there it is like

Here I am...wasn't I

It is just that fast.  As soon as the realisation hits that you have completely emptied your mind, that realisation breaks the'spell' and becomes the thought that is there so there is no longer nothing there.  Understand why it is hard to get this from a book?  Or even by talking to someone?        

I do understand, cause I was trying to say how hard it is to get that blank mind by putting in the random crap. And I know what you're saying, with the fragments of thought occasionally. But I really do need to empty my mind to sleep. Otherwise I'll just be lying awake thinking random shit.

[Hoshiko]

Hey, this is the girl's room, buddy, who invited you? Nobody's asking you to make out with anyone.

actually, this is MY room...you are all here at my behest...now leave me alone and continue with your drug-soaked lesbian make-out session....

Doth thou dare insult us who bring such wonderful conversation about such vital subjects as smoking the smoketh and it's effect on the female motor system?

Why, I think thou doth.

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I demand satisfaction, sir!