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« on: October 31, 2020, 11:50:30 am »
As far as arguing with the woman who was giving bad advice:
I have psychological problems, so I have experience with those wtf moments when shit goes upside down. She does too apparently. Being disenchanted with the history of psychiatry is completely understandable, given my own experiences. That said, I believe in the current state of psychiatry, I trust my psychiatrist and I take my pills everyday, and I've expressed before that I think it's irresponsible not to. I've heard horror stories though, and I can't blame everyone for not being immediately on-board with every aspect of psychiatry and sometimes looking for solutions outside the box. I recognize how dangerous that is and that in an ideal world, we'd all just trust our doctors and give it a try, that said, the abuses of the past are still fresh in memory and not at all distant from us. It sucks that trust has been damaged so much, but I respect why it has. Almost every one of my posts was stressing the importance of trusting your doctor, but it's really hard sometimes and I can show respect for someone who doesn't trust the experts without being a "simp", a simp is someone who expects something in return and is such a tired word, like the right wing throwing the word "cuck" around. I said many times that things aren't like they once were and to trust the people who went to school for a long time to know what the actual fuck they're talking about.
RWHN: Didn't know I'd been defending him, but based on what I've read it's very wrong. Was likely a knee-jerk response to seeing everyone relentlessly shit on anyone with a slightly different opinion, but in his case he deserves no respect or patience, I can see why that would upset someone and didn't realize I'd done that. The point is taken and that sometimes I need to shut up and just let the adults handle things when issues like that crop up. There's really not a good excuse for coming to the defense of someone like that, so I'll admit that was one of many serious fuckups on my part.
Altered: Didn't mean to pester Altered. I like Altered's posts, even though some of them are especially venomous. I mean it when I say I wish the best for Altered and I get worried when Altered doesn't post for a while. Sure Altered spammed my email account with some weird spam-mail, and when that happened it hit me that she was really upset and that she might step it up a notch if I upset her further, I chose to remove myself from the equation for then because I have people and situations I deeply care about and someone's grudge over the internet was not something I wanted to feed into. That's not the hill I wanted to die on, in other words.
Doctor Howl: Of all the things I regret, one of the ones I regret the most is antagonizing Howl. Howl has posts of substance and I enjoy reading them. The Billy thread is one of the major things that keeps me coming back and reading. I may not always agree with his thoughts or manner of communication, but I read his posts because I like the way he expresses himself. There's really no excuse for me antagonizing Howl in the past, beyond some childish shit like "He started it!" when really he didn't and I deserved the shit I got from him.
In all, I can see how I've shat the bed, and hoping people will graciously sweep it under the rug yet again is asking a bit much... hell, when I started posting here a decade ago I was a shit-eating Libertarian tool, I've grown since then, in no small part thanks to the pushback I experienced here. I find myself wondering if I'd have the same views if I hadn't stuck my toe in the waters and experienced the bubbly swarming of pirhanas. But as has been pointed out to me, there are people who simply take, and then there are people who give back. I must admit I have no idea how to give back in such a community. Not exactly equipped well enough intellectually to do much other than crack a few jokes hopefully people don't take the wrong way.
I appreciate your responses, Johnny. I know you likely didn't want a few paragraphs of mind-vomit but that's the only way I know how to express my thoughts. I'll work on that as things progress.