Untitled Rant About Myself.

[EK WAFFLR]

Okay, your Holy Quest^TM:  You will spend your free time this week OUTSIDE OF THE HOUSE.  You will in fact meet at least one new person each day, and find out one interesting thing about each person.  You will record the results here.

Day 1. Monday.

I met my sister today. I haven't seen her since February 2011.
She brought her new "pal", whose penis she currently enjoys. We (me and him) talked for quite  a while, and it turns out that he is Swedish (East Belgium, for you amerispags).
I also noticed, with this guy, compared to my Sister's former boyfriends (she pointed out repeatedly that he was NOT her boyfriend, though), that she goes out of her way to pick fellers that does not in any way remind her of our father or.. well.. me. Also, he's Bisexual.

What's the best thing about the guy that you saw?

What's the worst?

The best part: He seems to make my sister happy. She's more vibrant than I've seen her in six years.
Worst part: not sure about this, but he strikes me as a pushover, which I am 100% certain will make my sister go insane in not a very long time.

All in all, I liked him.

[Doktor Howl]

The best part: He seems to make my sister happy.

Well, I think I see the problem.

But I need verification.  Will watch for tomorrow's report.

[Cainad (dec.)]

Thanks everyone.
You warm my heart.


I am really just pissed off at myself for letting this get to me so hard.

Oh man, I know where you're coming from with that.

It's probably the most insidious part about clinical depression: recognizing it's a sickness is step 1 of getting better, but it's very easy to get stuck on it.

"I know that I have no real reason to feel like such crap. Somehow I am making myself be this miserable, and I hate that. Fuck you, self! You worthless piece of shit, stop being me who is hating myself and feeling shitty and NNNYYYAAAARRRRRRRGHFUCKFUCKFUCK!"

Been there more times than I care to count. Keep on Holy Questing^TM.

[navkat]

Thanks everyone.
You warm my heart.


I am really just pissed off at myself for letting this get to me so hard.

Oh man, I know where you're coming from with that.

It's probably the most insidious part about clinical depression: recognizing it's a sickness is step 1 of getting better, but it's very easy to get stuck on it.

"I know that I have no real reason to feel like such crap. Somehow I am making myself be this miserable, and I hate that. Fuck you, self! You worthless piece of shit, stop being me who is hating myself and feeling shitty and NNNYYYAAAARRRRRRRGHFUCKFUCKFUCK!"

Been there more times than I care to count. Keep on Holy Questing^TM.

Cainad rides with no sign of priaprism.

You're okay in here. Nothin dirty about getting yourself sorted. If your response to depression is to go home and beat your wife...well...you'd just better start saying some Hail Nigels if ya know what I mean.

[Doktor Howl]

Cainad rides with no sign of priaprism.

I have priaprism, and I haven't ridden in years.   

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Thanks everyone.
You warm my heart.


I am really just pissed off at myself for letting this get to me so hard.

Oh man, I know where you're coming from with that.

It's probably the most insidious part about clinical depression: recognizing it's a sickness is step 1 of getting better, but it's very easy to get stuck on it.

"I know that I have no real reason to feel like such crap. Somehow I am making myself be this miserable, and I hate that. Fuck you, self! You worthless piece of shit, stop being me who is hating myself and feeling shitty and NNNYYYAAAARRRRRRRGHFUCKFUCKFUCK!"

Been there more times than I care to count. Keep on Holy Questing^TM.

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html

[EK WAFFLR]

Nigel, that Hyperbole and a Half episode is fucking brilliant! Thanks!

Cainad: NYYYYARRRGGGGFUCKFUCKFUCK indeed. Blah. I will Holy Quest™ until I croak.


Holy Quest™ day two.
International worker's day in Europe. Everything's closed, almost, and not a single soul outside. Spent a good hour walking in the woods, then to the pizza restaurant. Chatted a bit with the proprietor while he cooked pizzas, and we were waiting for the clerk to finish taking orders by phone. He gave us free ice cream. He doesn't exactly qualify as someone new, as he's been running that place for a decade, but he is as close as I get today, since as I said, there were nobody out and about.

[Doktor Howl]

Nigel, that Hyperbole and a Half episode is fucking brilliant! Thanks!

Cainad: NYYYYARRRGGGGFUCKFUCKFUCK indeed. Blah. I will Holy Quest™ until I croak.


Holy Quest™ day two.
International worker's day in Europe. Everything's closed, almost, and not a single soul outside. Spent a good hour walking in the woods, then to the pizza restaurant. Chatted a bit with the proprietor while he cooked pizzas, and we were waiting for the clerk to finish taking orders by phone. He gave us free ice cream. He doesn't exactly qualify as someone new, as he's been running that place for a decade, but he is as close as I get today, since as I said, there were nobody out and about.

Did you learn anything new about him?

[P3nT4gR4m]

Thanks everyone.
You warm my heart.


I am really just pissed off at myself for letting this get to me so hard.

Oh man, I know where you're coming from with that.

It's probably the most insidious part about clinical depression: recognizing it's a sickness is step 1 of getting better, but it's very easy to get stuck on it.

"I know that I have no real reason to feel like such crap. Somehow I am making myself be this miserable, and I hate that. Fuck you, self! You worthless piece of shit, stop being me who is hating myself and feeling shitty and NNNYYYAAAARRRRRRRGHFUCKFUCKFUCK!"

Been there more times than I care to count. Keep on Holy Questing^TM.

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html

I would often fantasize that maybe someday I could be one of those stoic badasses whose emotions are mostly comprised of rock music and not being afraid of things.

This part here! Fake it til you make it. There's occasionally days I actually feel like I'm almost there but most of the time I look like I am and even that helps.

[EK WAFFLR]

Nigel, that Hyperbole and a Half episode is fucking brilliant! Thanks!

Cainad: NYYYYARRRGGGGFUCKFUCKFUCK indeed. Blah. I will Holy Quest™ until I croak.


Holy Quest™ day two.
International worker's day in Europe. Everything's closed, almost, and not a single soul outside. Spent a good hour walking in the woods, then to the pizza restaurant. Chatted a bit with the proprietor while he cooked pizzas, and we were waiting for the clerk to finish taking orders by phone. He gave us free ice cream. He doesn't exactly qualify as someone new, as he's been running that place for a decade, but he is as close as I get today, since as I said, there were nobody out and about.

Did you learn anything new about him?

Actually, I did. He is the quintessential gruff owner, who never smiles. So that he gave us ice cream, and was generally pleasant was a new experience.

[Doktor Howl]

Nigel, that Hyperbole and a Half episode is fucking brilliant! Thanks!

Cainad: NYYYYARRRGGGGFUCKFUCKFUCK indeed. Blah. I will Holy Quest™ until I croak.


Holy Quest™ day two.
International worker's day in Europe. Everything's closed, almost, and not a single soul outside. Spent a good hour walking in the woods, then to the pizza restaurant. Chatted a bit with the proprietor while he cooked pizzas, and we were waiting for the clerk to finish taking orders by phone. He gave us free ice cream. He doesn't exactly qualify as someone new, as he's been running that place for a decade, but he is as close as I get today, since as I said, there were nobody out and about.

Did you learn anything new about him?

Actually, I did. He is the quintessential gruff owner, who never smiles. So that he gave us ice cream, and was generally pleasant was a new experience.

On the next one, try meeting someone with which you have no previous connections.

[EK WAFFLR]

Nigel, that Hyperbole and a Half episode is fucking brilliant! Thanks!

Cainad: NYYYYARRRGGGGFUCKFUCKFUCK indeed. Blah. I will Holy Quest™ until I croak.


Holy Quest™ day two.
International worker's day in Europe. Everything's closed, almost, and not a single soul outside. Spent a good hour walking in the woods, then to the pizza restaurant. Chatted a bit with the proprietor while he cooked pizzas, and we were waiting for the clerk to finish taking orders by phone. He gave us free ice cream. He doesn't exactly qualify as someone new, as he's been running that place for a decade, but he is as close as I get today, since as I said, there were nobody out and about.

Did you learn anything new about him?

Actually, I did. He is the quintessential gruff owner, who never smiles. So that he gave us ice cream, and was generally pleasant was a new experience.

On the next one, try meeting someone with which you have no previous connections.

Of course. I did so today, actually. Yesterday was "special" since there were no people outside.
Will post todays status report as soon as I have made myself something to eat.

[EK WAFFLR]

Day three: got up early (ish) for once. Took the train to Oslo, picked up a couple of concert tickets for some friends of mine, chatted with the proprietors of the shop the tickets were located. One of them apparently works for Turbonegro in his spare time.
Sat out in the sun for an hour and read.
Went to my former job and told my boss I wanted the final paycheck ASAP.
Went to get fitted for a costume for a TV commercial I'm going to act in. The woman who I have previously spoken with over the phone previously, turned out to be much nicer in person than on the phone. Didn't learn too much about her since it was a hectic environment with four others being fitted at the same time, but she was pleasant and had a winning smile.

Then, I went back out into the sun, read a bit, checked the internetz on my phone.
A girl had sent me a message on a dating site for weirdoes I frequent. I messaged her back and said, meet me for a cup of coffee! She, amazingly, said yes.

She was about to travel to visit friends, so I only saw her for 20 minutes, but it was a good twenty minutes.
She's from the north, like I am. She's practically just as perverted as I am, which is obviously a good thing, but I didn't talk too much abut that when we met, but rather via text messages afterwards.
Her favorite authors are Terry Pratchett (YAY) and Paolo Cohelo (meh).
She's 25 and has a brother that's one and a half years old.


All in all a very good day.
 

[Doktor Howl]

Well done.  How's your outlook coming along?

[EK WAFFLR]

I'm back. I went away to visit me mum on Thursday, since I was flat out broke. Had a good time there, walking the dog and starting a fundraiser for my favorite celebrity crush Amanda Palmer, which led to me getting to know a bunch of great people and starting the incredibky cheesy Uke Against the Machine project.

My outlook has improved significantly, and while I'm not un-depressed, I am much, MUCH less prone to foetal positioned despair on the floor.

I cannot thank you guys enough!
From the bottom of my heart, I adore you!