I'm crushing so hard that I can't fucking concentrate on anything at all

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I thought it was more speedy and wired up-like.

OFUCK LOVE IS METH

Well yeah, but kind of like when you take too much coffee after already being too tired to think straight.

Everything is quivering and achey and tired BUT YOU CAN'T STOP

You literally can't get through any-damn-thing without your mind wandering to very distracting thoughts and then it's like

"uuuuuuuuugh please I'll see/talk to them soon, just let me focus on making dinner or something"

but then you see them, hear them, smell them, or get a fucking text message and then it's like

then they go away again and it's all like  "I don't even know what to do with myself now"


That much up-and-down wears a body down like crazy.

OMG yes.

I kind of miss it, but then again not really.

[Dalek]

I thought it was more speedy and wired up-like.

OFUCK LOVE IS METH

Well yeah, but kind of like when you take too much coffee after already being too tired to think straight.

Everything is quivering and achey and tired BUT YOU CAN'T STOP

You literally can't get through any-damn-thing without your mind wandering to very distracting thoughts and then it's like

"uuuuuuuuugh please I'll see/talk to them soon, just let me focus on making dinner or something"

but then you see them, hear them, smell them, or get a fucking text message and then it's like

then they go away again and it's all like  "I don't even know what to do with myself now"


That much up-and-down wears a body down like crazy.

OMG yes.

I kind of miss it, but then again not really.

this.

[Dalek]

I spent the most ridiculous and awkward hour with her today lol. We were testing 5-meo-mipt on a rather high dosage. We were expecting sunny weather in the afternoon, so we went out to the park with no exact plans. It started raining and got really fucking cold, so the group of confused tripping people split up. Me and her ended up in McDonalds. All the time we were alone I was trying to form a conversation and she wouldn't reply. I started wondering, why she was just standing silent and felt like there was some problem on my side. Thought she was in a weird and bad trip and tried cheering her up somehow, but everything I'd say was greeted by silence. She's rather introverted and I speculated that she just wanted to be left alone with her thoughts, but I kept feeling the silence as pretty awkward.. My mind became so fixated on our failed communication that it had went completely numb and the only feeling I felt was awkwardness. Finally, she started talking. Not really though - she would utter two or three words and then shut up again. And after prolonged efforts she finally managed to tell me that she was physically uncapable of speaking due to the very weird kind of jaw tension that this substance created. At that moment I laughed my ass off.

[LMNO]

Oh, good. You're mixing love with high-test drugs. What could possibly go wrong?

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Yes, this should end well.

I can't say that I totally miss youth.

[ñͤͣ̄ͦ̌̑͗͊͛͂͗ ̸̨̨̣̺̼̣̜͙͈͕̮̊̈́̈͂͛̽͊ͭ̓͆ͅé ̰̓̓́ͯ́́͞]

I can't say that I totally miss youth.

Right? I feel relieved at turning 30 later this year.

[Cainad (dec.)]

That's why I skipped youth. I have an uncle who said I was born at the age of 32

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

That's why I skipped youth. I have an uncle who said I was born at the age of 32

That was really forward-thinking of you, I wish I'd thought of it.

Because that whole teens/twenties thing SUCKED.

[EK WAFFLR]

That's why I skipped youth. I have an uncle who said I was born at the age of 32

That was really forward-thinking of you, I wish I'd thought of it.

Because that whole teens/twenties thing SUCKED.

THIS!

[Dalek]

FUCK THIS SHIT 

She wanted to come over today. The problem is that for some obscure reason my mother hates her. So she started yelling that she doesn't want her in her home, that she's an evil person, who is going to ruin my life, that she is going to strangle her with her bare hands etc. etc. My mother barely knows her. She knows that I hang out with her. She's talked to her a few times. Eventually she started yelling at me, telling me that if I don't stop talking to her she's going to ruin her life (and she knows a lot of very important people, so she's capable of doing so) and that she's a pathetic worm, that deserves to be destroyed. WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUYCK FUFKCYU  F FSUAFSAFSAasgtfa[p. AAAAAAAAAARGFHGHFHGHFHGFHGGHFHGFHGFHGHFGHFHGHGFHGFHGFHGHFHGFHGHFHGFHGHFGHF. FUCKING FUCK FUCK

I just talked to a psychiatrist, who I trust and who she trusts and scheduled an appointment with him. I've been trying not to do this for a long time, but this finally tipped the cup. My mother is living in some completely imaginary paranoid world that is DARK AS FUCK, where I have united with my father to ruin her life and to make her miserable. I really, really, really hope that if this psychiatrist tells her that her behavior is abnormal, she's going to somehow change, but I seriously doubt it. FUCK I FEEL LIKE BREAKING SHIT WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO LIVE WITH A FUCKING PSYCHO FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKF UCKFU FUFKKFUCC<MFIHYUF(UFSAFJAFJAJ 

[Freeky]

-sympathetic gentle pat on shoulder-  Nothing is worse than a psycho, man.  I'm sorry you've got to deal with that.


Freeky,
Psycho.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Let's see, you're about 17 and you hang out with this girl doing experimental psychedelics at McDonald's, and FOR SOME MYSTERIOUS REASON your mom doesn't like her and thinks she's a bad influence in your life?

Not to imply that your mom isn't imbalanced, but hmmm. Might there be a connection?

I WONDER.

[Freeky]

Well, yeah, that's a good point. 

[The Good Reverend Roger]

Let's see, you're about 17 and you hang out with this girl doing experimental psychedelics at McDonald's, and FOR SOME MYSTERIOUS REASON your mom doesn't like her and thinks she's a bad influence in your life?

Not to imply that your mom isn't imbalanced, but hmmm. Might there be a connection?

I WONDER.

THIS.

[The Good Reverend Roger]

I spent the most ridiculous and awkward hour with her today lol. We were testing 5-meo-mipt on a rather high dosage. We were expecting sunny weather in the afternoon, so we went out to the park with no exact plans. It started raining and got really fucking cold, so the group of confused tripping people split up. Me and her ended up in McDonalds. All the time we were alone I was trying to form a conversation and she wouldn't reply. I started wondering, why she was just standing silent and felt like there was some problem on my side. Thought she was in a weird and bad trip and tried cheering her up somehow, but everything I'd say was greeted by silence. She's rather introverted and I speculated that she just wanted to be left alone with her thoughts, but I kept feeling the silence as pretty awkward.. My mind became so fixated on our failed communication that it had went completely numb and the only feeling I felt was awkwardness. Finally, she started talking. Not really though - she would utter two or three words and then shut up again. And after prolonged efforts she finally managed to tell me that she was physically uncapable of speaking due to the very weird kind of jaw tension that this substance created. At that moment I laughed my ass off.

You guys are fucking idiots.