Plus I Got Depression

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

This post requires to be in a separate post from the last one because I didn't want to mingle what I'm about to say with discussion of fappage.

So, my housemate has a dead chinchilla in the freezer

which I have asked her to please get rid of.

She says that she is planning to, but

she likes to get it out sometimes

to pet it.

[BabylonHoruv]

So I haven't masturbated for several weeks because I have this thing where I start crying after I orgasm. I gave it a shot today to see if it's gone away, and it hasn't.

I'm sure that for someone out there, that's a feature. For me, it's definitely a bug. 

Yeah, that must make casual sex kinda awkward.  Mind you, there's some nice dacrophiliacs out there.

I wouldn't let it stop you from fapping though, nobody to see the tears but you.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

So I haven't masturbated for several weeks because I have this thing where I start crying after I orgasm. I gave it a shot today to see if it's gone away, and it hasn't.

I'm sure that for someone out there, that's a feature. For me, it's definitely a bug. 

Yeah, that must make casual sex kinda awkward.  Mind you, there's some nice dacrophiliacs out there.

I wouldn't let it stop you from fapping though, nobody to see the tears but you.

Yeah, but then instead of being happy and sated I'm sad and useless.

[BabylonHoruv]

So I haven't masturbated for several weeks because I have this thing where I start crying after I orgasm. I gave it a shot today to see if it's gone away, and it hasn't.

I'm sure that for someone out there, that's a feature. For me, it's definitely a bug. 

Yeah, that must make casual sex kinda awkward.  Mind you, there's some nice dacrophiliacs out there.

I wouldn't let it stop you from fapping though, nobody to see the tears but you.

Yeah, but then instead of being happy and sated I'm sad and useless.

Yeah, that certainly sounds as if it defeats the purpose of fapping in the first place.

[Pope Pixie Pickle]

My dad woke me up by threatening to kick me out of his place cos I was on the phone to Payne last night trying to explain how I feel about how he deals with my illness and how he seems to have come to his own conclusions on what has made me ill and even my mum has accused me of smoking pot again.

I am feeling so stuck here right now with no way to vent how I feel about the situation I'm in. I've only just got my old phone back and I have had no privacy to talk to anyone privately and when I do the deaf old fuck miraculously grows a pair of ears when I calmly voice my frustrations about how he deals with it.

I just want the voices to stop so I can have my life back.

[Maria]

My dad woke me up by threatening to kick me out of his place cos I was on the phone to Payne last night trying to explain how I feel about how he deals with my illness and how he seems to have come to his own conclusions on what has made me ill and even my mum has accused me of smoking pot again.

I am feeling so stuck here right now with no way to vent how I feel about the situation I'm in. I've only just got my old phone back and I have had no privacy to talk to anyone privately and when I do the deaf old fuck miraculously grows a pair of ears when I calmly voice my frustrations about how he deals with it.

I just want the voices to stop so I can have my life back.

Ah, hon. 

[Dysnomia]

Aww Pixie.   

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

My dad woke me up by threatening to kick me out of his place cos I was on the phone to Payne last night trying to explain how I feel about how he deals with my illness and how he seems to have come to his own conclusions on what has made me ill and even my mum has accused me of smoking pot again.

I am feeling so stuck here right now with no way to vent how I feel about the situation I'm in. I've only just got my old phone back and I have had no privacy to talk to anyone privately and when I do the deaf old fuck miraculously grows a pair of ears when I calmly voice my frustrations about how he deals with it.

I just want the voices to stop so I can have my life back.

That is total crap. I'm sorry Pix.

[Freeky]

  I'm sorry, Pix.

[Pope Pixie Pickle]

He just has a very short temper. I can't deal with conflict or stress atm and yesterday I had more silences than all the rest of the week, and generally more control over how the voices behave. I am not going to be booted out on my arse but the old man needs to be able to deal with me calmly and stop upsetting my step-mum who doesn't deserve his shit either. The old man's BIP is so small the bars must pinch his beer gut.

Anyway I need to eat my sauce from a jar chicken curry and do some rice for it.

Thing is about making me go to my mums house is that my younger sister with the frontal lobe damage has always been a bit of an attention hooer brain damage or not and stresses me out a hell of a lot. 

[Triple Zero]

My boss is being a complete cunt and tried to get me to sign a document saying that I won't sue em if they terminate my contract. I'm undergoing psychiactric assessment and signing that may be as good as signing away any benefits and also being detatched from reality and under duress that price of paper would be invalid anyway. Also they are obstructing the process by which I get my benefits and rent paid so today I wrote another of my politely shitty letters explaing to the dept of work and pensions which I am keeping in triplicate (my mum is an ex civil servant ) to hand in with the form they were
supposed to give me today tommorow which explains everything to them as to why it has taken this long.  To get it thee if at all and tommorow I am going to call the inland revenue and see if my taxes have been properly paid and to fuck the guy over with what I know so far.

So I have massive tension headache and my plan for tomorrow to get my old net connection fixed is fucked.   

Pro-tip:

Whenever ANYONE asks you to sign ANYTHING tell them you'd like to take the document home, read it and will return it signed, later.

This is just standard policy for me, whether I completely trust the document and everything or not, it is always coming home with me to read and ponder in a quiet setting without distraction or pressure.

If they can't do that, I don't sign it.

Except yesterday when I signed up for the gym. Because their special offer that would save me quite some bucks was only valid until that last day. And I regretted signing it without giving it some good thinking time immediately when I went home.

Out of principle mostly.

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

Nigel is all the sudden horny for no apparent reason.

After the minus-sex-drive I've had for the last month, this is surprising and kind of annoying.

FUCK YOU, SPRING! 

[Triple Zero]

Well all's well that ends well, I managed to do the minimum thing I set out to do today for my work and my brother (with whom I'm working on together this project) was satisfied. It's so easy when they don't know you're splitting up a list of tiny improvements so that it sounds like more than it really is, cannot have been more than 10-15 lines of code for the entire day. Ok they were mostly pretty good lines of code, but still. And my brother knows about the trouble I'm wrestling with, so he was kind and supportive. I wanted to go to the gym today, but now it's dark and I don't feel like it anymore. I went to the supermarket to get some beer, new coffee, cola and crisps. I wasted my entire day trying to get to work and now I am done, but I am also beat. I cried on the way back from the supermarket. At least I managed to clean up my kitchen somewhat and the stock I'm boiling must be pretty much done by now. At least I got done the bit I set out to do today, this is not always the case, I can easily waste days on trying to get to work without even getting a littlebit done.

(Ok now I'm glad this thread is here so I can post this depressing whine of mine without making a new thread or spagging up somebody else's, I kinda had to get this off my chest and my gf is gone for the weekend)

[LMNO]

Trip, I didn't realize you were feeling so crappy.  I hope you feel better. 

[Doktor Howl]

Trip, do something that is both ignorant and fun.  That always works for me.

I have some suggestions, if you need them.