BLARFINGARFS EPIC SOAP OPERA

[The Great Pope of OUTSIDE]

Yes.

But not something that would land you in jail, cuz that would just suck.

[Dysnomia]

I think I'm finally willing to let myself be the Queen of Swords now.  I can't deal with the pain of being hurt over and over and over anymore, and I've gotten that card for YEARS. 

Sweetheart, I may get a raft of shit for saying this here of all places, but if you get that card consistently it's because you need to walk alone for a while. It doesn't keep coming up because it's who you are; it keeps coming up because it's who you need to be, and until you own that position you won't be able to move past it. When you have been the Queen of Swords long enough, the Empress will start coming up for you, and you will find it just as hard to accept.

No it's completely true.  I need to be alone, and I need to use my "sword" if you will to cut out the bullshit for a while.  I'm taking my therapist's recommendation of 2 months then see how I feel.  Till then it's friends only.  Which is good because I can build more personal relationships with people that way.

Also.  I want to do horrible things to people, specifically the people at my work and OF. 


SHOULD I? Y/N?

Horrible as in making them shit themselves till they bleed or jamming toothbrushes smeared with shit into their eyes?

you mean I have to chose?

[Dysnomia]

Yes.

But not something that would land you in jail, cuz that would just suck.

only if they catch me.   

[Don Coyote]

I think I'm finally willing to let myself be the Queen of Swords now.  I can't deal with the pain of being hurt over and over and over anymore, and I've gotten that card for YEARS. 

Sweetheart, I may get a raft of shit for saying this here of all places, but if you get that card consistently it's because you need to walk alone for a while. It doesn't keep coming up because it's who you are; it keeps coming up because it's who you need to be, and until you own that position you won't be able to move past it. When you have been the Queen of Swords long enough, the Empress will start coming up for you, and you will find it just as hard to accept.

No it's completely true.  I need to be alone, and I need to use my "sword" if you will to cut out the bullshit for a while.  I'm taking my therapist's recommendation of 2 months then see how I feel.  Till then it's friends only.  Which is good because I can build more personal relationships with people that way.

Also.  I want to do horrible things to people, specifically the people at my work and OF. 


SHOULD I? Y/N?

Horrible as in making them shit themselves till they bleed or jamming toothbrushes smeared with shit into their eyes?

you mean I have to chose?

No, just use their own bloody shit to stab them in the eyes.

[Dysnomia]

 

[LMNO]

Also, INVEST IN SEX TOYS.  Try new things.

[Dysnomia]

I'm going to regret this as soon as I type this, but here goes...I'm open to recommendations.  LOL


Went for a walk in the park with Mr. Africa.  He held my hand when it got dark since it was hard for me to see and I kept drunkwalking everywhere (thanks lexapro!).  He's also ok with waiting to date me till 12/1 and just hanging out/being friends till then.   

[Mesozoic Mister Nigel]

I'm going to regret this as soon as I type this, but here goes...I'm open to recommendations.  LOL


Went for a walk in the park with Mr. Africa.  He held my hand when it got dark since it was hard for me to see and I kept drunkwalking everywhere (thanks lexapro!).  He's also ok with waiting to date me till 12/1 and just hanging out/being friends till then.   

Aww. Are you attracted to him? Do you like him? He seems like a really, really great guy from what I've heard so far, and respectful, and he seems like he really likes you.

[Dysnomia]

I want to do unspeakable things to him.   

He wanted to go out dancing sat night, but I'm switching to daytime because I'm trying to be good.  Also, that night is the only night I can snag my other guy friend for drunken asshattery.  I sorta like this guy too, but we're just friends, I don't think he likes me that way, and he's also friends with OF and other pplz.  However, unlike other pplz he doesn't give a shit what anyone thinks and is awesome.  Also, he's kinda horrible, just like me. 

[LMNO]

I'm going to regret this as soon as I type this, but here goes...I'm open to recommendations.  LOL

Throw a condom on the end of a jackhammer.






If you want a more honest answer, PM me.

[Dysnomia]

I'm going to regret this as soon as I type this, but here goes...I'm open to recommendations.  LOL

Throw a condom on the end of a jackhammer.






If you want a more honest answer, PM me.

  My girl parts hurt now.

[Freeky]

I'm going to regret this as soon as I type this, but here goes...I'm open to recommendations.  LOL

Throw a condom on the end of a jackhammer.






If you want a more honest answer, PM me.

 My girl parts hurt now.

Doesn't sound so bad to me.

No, you're right. Condom =   PAIN.

[Jasper]

People have died that way

[Dysnomia]

People have died that way

[Dysnomia]

turns out Mr. Africa isn't actually ok just being friends for a while since he apparently really likes me.  But at this point I don't trust myself enough to actually be able to tell if someone is really a good person or not, and I need a break.