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"If you push this button, you will be ruined."

Americans:  "How many times can I push the button?"

Yo nerds. I'm gonna be in on a lot of these might as well keep it organized.

Went out to holler at the anti-choice dicknuts on Saturday, partially for the reasons on the tin and partially to feel out my Current Capacity since we're all 8 years older and creakier than we were last go round. Went well, recruited appropriate supports, tapped out when I needed to tap out, got mouthy at a cop and told a bunch of cunts to suck a dick.

You're turning into me, you know.

Core improvements I've made for myself: dedicated and competent buddy system; intentionally and aggressively expanding the ally circle early and allowing for more parallel play and less "all my allies are friends both with me and each other" errors; robust self-knowledge and acceptance of limits; properly calibrated hypervigilance; more complete understanding of the rules of engagement the cops are (supposed to be) playing by.

Wise.  Those rules will be subject to shockingly rapid change.  Also, remember that Trump has been promising to use the military on you.  Whether or not they would be enthusiastic about it is very much dependent on which units would be potentially deployed.

Happy to share strats, answer questions, scream at the void together. I hope to have some time for a diatribe on parallel organizing and diversity of tactics before too long.

I am your go-to guy for the more direct approach.  Also, I can give you a description of the state of the art drone situation.

That sounds awful.  Sorry to hear it.

My mother passed away last March, and my dad hauled himself to a grief group, and it did wonders.  Might help, don't know.

I've thought about therapy but lol no access. Haven't thought of like a support group or anything, but I'll take a look for something local. Appreciate the shout.

No worries.  Hope it helps.

So, I gotta ask, are you still involved in the astronomy thing?

Well, not in any official capacity, but I'm generally curious so I keep up on it casually.

I think the thing that stings the most is this: I got my degree in PHL (real philosophy, not that French shit) and I was really good at it to a point where, as an undergrad, they let me teach the entry level classical logic course. I was so effective as an educator, I raised the average GPA of the class by 25 points (and it promptly dropped 25 points when I left). I really loved both learning and teaching PHL. It's the only thing that I've done that motivated me to be up at 4am and work 12 hours for years on end without hating it. But, despite my proficiency (graduated with a 3.85, and only because I chose to not drive myself crazy chasing a 4.0), I was essentially abandoned by the university and my family and was not nearly financially able to continue my education to a point where I could teach professionally. Not being able to do the one useful thing that I'm good at is definitely a foundational part of the ongoing issue.

It's not the only thing to be sure. Just to give you an example of the spiteful shit life has been doing to me: At one of my lowest points, I was reintroduced to the woman who I would end up marrying. At that moment, I though for sure that things were finally going to turn around. Less than two weeks after we got married, her father died. Cancer killed him out of nowhere; he was otherwise perfectly healthy. They were really close. Because of this, the current entire duration of our marriage has been nothing but grief. I kinda even feel like I caused this somehow, like my bad luck just spilled over into this poor girl's life. I know that's not what happened, but sometimes it really feels like I'm just cursed somehow.

Apologies again for puking all this up here.

That sounds awful.  Sorry to hear it.

My mother passed away last March, and my dad hauled himself to a grief group, and it did wonders.  Might help, don't know.

oh fuck, this place again??

Yeah, well, this place only gets traffic when we have GOP in office.

And now they have all of the offices.

They correlate for sure. But I was making my way back regardless, though the reason might be misguided. I've been profoundly depressed for over a decade. Every good thing that has happened was immediately followed by a terrible event that knocked me back further down than I started. And the relentless nature of my condition has left me so tired and unmotivated to a point where... Well, it's bad. I started writing a document that outlined everything, but it was just long and depressing. But yeah, that's the short of it.

The specific reason I came back here though, is because I sort of pinpointed "where it all started" (a meaningless measure). To approximate, it began right around the time I was working on the BIP 2013. I've been so hopeless and desperate to find a way out of this, and I just thought that if I came back to "where it all started," I'd be able to find some answers or reasons or something to inform my actions going forward. But realistically, I think I'm probably just screwed forever.

Anyhow, sorry to overshare. I just figured, at the very least, writing something down might help. Idfk. Or kill me.

So, I gotta ask, are you still involved in the astronomy thing?

The problem is, moderate Liberals will do exactly that.  And they'll get thrashed.  Again.

Fuckin PROPHECY.

So, the engineers that report to me call me The Monster when they think I can't hear them.

Young people are just not serious about havin' a good time in the end times.

Of course it will, and it will do the same to you.  If you think the Democrats are a resistance you aren't at all serious about resisting.

So, how's that philosophy been working out for everyone recently?

RFK Jr has been nominated for HHS.

I live in a fucking cartoon.   

Resist all you like, nobody will care.

The rules changed, and nobody seems to have noticed.  Trump and his cronies don't care about the forms of law, because he has already proven to his own satisfaction that laws don't apply to him.

There is no peaceful way to dislodge him, and our nation at this point cannot survive a civil war.  I do not say "win or lose," I say "Cannot maintain vital services and remain a functional political entity."

Cities have enough food in them for 18 hours.  And isolating cities is painfully simple.

For example, if you were to blow the bridge above the I90 passing under Indiana 80 and tear up 100 meters of track to the North, you cut the country in half unless Denver and the tracks heading East remain intact (good luck).  If the Eisenhower cutoff is also blown, you can't bring food into the metro area fast enough, even at starvation rations, to break even.

All those people aren't going to sit and starve quietly.  No, they will head East into the rest of Chicagoland under the mistaken impression that there will be food there.

Almost every city has an achilles heel like this.

The moment a proper insurrection begins, our cities turn into roaming mobs of starvation-desperate people.

So there is neither a peaceful way out nor a violent one.

There is no resistance.  The time for that was the last 6 months and, unhappily, 14 million people thought it wasn't worth it because of <insert niche issue here>.

The whole country is dumb as fuck and now we're all going to get the government we deserve.  Good & hard.

Now me, I am all for abortion on demand. Tbh with you, there's a damn fine case to be made for it being compulsory for a lot of folk.

You support culling people you consider inferiors?

Sorry, for a moment I was calling you a prog.

You're not.

You're a full-out fucking Nazi.

Now me, I am all for abortion on demand. Tbh with you, there's a damn fine case to be made for it being compulsory for a lot of folk.

Your fascist tendencies are showing.

Compulsory abortion, like forced sterilization, belongs under the umbrella of eugenics.  Prohibiting abortions for those belonging to the superior breed of human is morally indistinguishable from mandating abortions for those you've decided are inferior.

I wouldn't be particularly surprised if you subscribe to the notion that criminality is inherited.

And retroactive in other cases.

Anyway back to my salient point because your inability to recognise low farce is frankly quite dull.

I didn't get the impression that your endorsement of eugenics constitutes low farce, and that is the only subject on which I've engaged with you.  Frankly, I'm not terribly interested in your "salient point".

Maybe just maybe it is possible that the Tangerine Titwanker didn't win because suddenly after a couple of hundred years of the democracy thing 70 million NeoNazis registered to vote. Maybe the other candidate was just significantly shit.

You sound like you're trying to rebut something I said, but I have not expressed any opinions regarding the cause of the election outcome.

Now stretch yourself a bit here Dok Whiney and see if you can't comprehend what this bit of satire is communicating.

Now the cause of your apparent non-sequiturs becomes clear.  I'm not Dok.  Maybe you replying to the wrong post?  Or you're confused about who is who?


Replying to the wrong post while not addressing its content doesn't seem like a winning strategy.

That person doesn't know.  That person is confused.

However, it is the usual prog line:  "I can only punch directly to my right, so everyone to my right is a fascist."

It's basically a replay of the 2015 purity Olympics, and it's boring.

Sally:  "Is that legal?"

Me:  "The first time.  I checked, and there is no specific treaty or legal regulation banning glass as a weapon."

I think there's the making of a good marketing slogan in there.

"It's legal...the first time."

"Deploy our weapons platforms, and you'll be the reason they need to rewrite the rules of war."

"It's never a war crime the first time."
- The Fat Electrician

It's true.

And GLORIOUS.

Meeting today:

Me:  "I have looked at the numbers, Mary, and we can't use tungsten for fragmentation.  It's too expensive and it would also be heavy enough to cut battery life by 75%."

Mary:  "Yes, but it punches through damn near everything."

Sally (Now her real name):  "Doesn't do us any good if it can't reach the target.  Any ideas, Hamish?"

Me:  "Yes.  Upsize the explosive 15% and jacket the doggie with glass."

Mary:  "..."

Sally:  "..."

Me:  "What?  It's light, it flies a greater distance, and it can't be detected with X-rays.  Also, every time the victim is moved, it's like he has tiny gnomes with bone saws inside him that start cutting.  So when he's placed on a stretcher, that alone is like stabbing him a dozen times."

Sally:  "Is that legal?"

Me:  "The first time.  I checked, and there is no specific treaty or legal regulation banning glass as a weapon."

Sally:  "Um. I am going to go to my office and think about this."

Mary:  "Don't leave me alone with this monster!"

Me:  "Not for nothing, but Trump just made Matthew Gaetz the attorney general."

Sally:  *boils*

Me:  "And he's trying to have Lara Trump installed in the senate."

Sally:  "I want a proposal on my desk by the 18th."

Me:  "On it."

Mary:  "Oh my God."

Me:  "Welcome to the Cyber Corporation, Cyberpunk."

Mary:  "What?"

Me:  "This all fits into the first statistical deviation."

Mary:  "Did you just tell me this is all normal?"

Me:  "Yes, but in geek."